mode : busy

letihnya..semalam baru balik dari KL..walaupun 2 hari jek kat sana tapi still letih since tak cukup tidur...thinking of the seminar that need to be attend ngan management masa utk jumpa kawan2 kat UM lagi..but still i manage to do all the activity planned...jumpa Kumin n Bal yg da lama tak jumpa..plus Boey...and Kojek..not forgotten Tony...

walaupun jumpa sekejap tapi worth it la kot dapat jumpa kawan2 lama..banyak story keluar though da lama tinggalkan sekolah..

this week banyak betul assignment yang nak kena submit..same like last week and last week..and last week also..sigh! neverthought that i'm this busy since last 3weeks...

satellite test on Monday, submitting the Entrepreneurs assignment on Tuesday and Mandarin test on Wednesday...then will be going back to Kelantan on that same Wednesday 2 September at 7 p.m.. i just cant wait till that moment arrive...ho3

sadly i had to leave Spark at UTM...hopefully he'll be fine...owh,lupa lak..i named my new motorcycle as Spark..just like when i named my kereta kancil@kereta kebal as Sally...hahaha

that's all for now..later2 i'll continue this blog again...missing abah badly since it's Ramadhan again..moga di ampunkan dosa dia dan ditempatkan dalam kalangan orang yang beriman..Amin...

ramadhan

pheww..da 3 taon kt johor..xsangke ak mampu survive kt cni..tp blom smpi mase utk tarik nafas lega...ad ag staon n macam2 bleh jadi dlm staon...next sem will be going for LI(Latihan Industri) as in practical for 1 sem...damn cant wait..im to excited for it that i couldnt focus for now...hopefully everything will be fine...

dalam 3 taon kt johor neh,krenyer da 3 kali ramadhan n syawal jgk la ak kt selatan semenanjung neh...besenyer kt utara jek...xbyk beza pn suasana selain makanan dia yg bbeza ngn org utara...

ramadhan kali ni ad sedikit perubahan dalam diri kot...klu dlu sllu lambat2kn solat o langsung tinggal terus if x sempat nk kejar mase utk enjoy o pegi kelas o tido jek...tapi sekarang laen...harap sangat benda ni akan jadi amalan...hijrah ke arah kebaikan harapnyer...

rindu

tiba-tiba teringatkan abah...last gi melawat dia pon before balik cuti sem ritu...harap2 rumah dia still bersih...

hepy hepy mode~

she buzz me in ym...damn so happy~

cam nk melompat asenyer...ha3

tapi lek...wa still ley control emosi wa...

wa taw die still bace blog2 neh but pedulikan laa...i write what i like...

die x suke pe wa kesah..jnji wa yg suke..

hehehe...harap2 die sehat selalu...

Quote of d day

Good relations don't need any promises

Any terms or condition

It just need 2 wonderful people

1 cool like me

&

1 sweet like you

tetiba rasa rindu nak main basketball

teringat pulak zaman matrik,best moment..

sekarang da tak leh maen...sedey btol bler terkenangkan jari neh

adoiii~

cuti sem sayer~ ho3

kat umah Mat Pik ngn Pokcek(anak sdare die)

kursus installer kat Brickwell Company ngn kontraktor oldtimer.(ak rindu rambut neh)

Pokmie

pomen gua...farok

bler da xtaw nk wtper...ni la jadinyer..tp xpe,kami rempit yg sehat...thanx to farok..pomen terbaek so far...ha3

blom masuk keje2 meranapkn kancil ag neh..ha3
kesian keter kebal ak tuh..da macam2 benda da ak langgar,nsb bek keras ag..tiang, longkang, anjing, lubang sume da ku harungi...

adoi...tak lame ag nk balek utm da...malas btol nk ride moto...tp cambez jek klu ride smbil dgr lagu Kaza...

cuti kali ni bez gler...keje gue asyik mlepak jek...tp maseh rindukn kumin...takde penghibur,sunyi btol bler takde org wt lawak...

walaupon melepak,tp ad gk la hasilnyer...gue da ad kad hijau...taraf2 kontraktor punyer tuh...ho3...bkn sng nk dpt,kna cairkn taik telinga ngn ceramah selama 6jam...shit!!

but atleast its worth it laa...pndengaran pn jadi clear jek bler taik2 telinga tuh cair...ha3

dalam 2 bulan ni asyik terpikirkan rezut exam yg merundum jatuh,pastu asyik kena bebel sebab sllu balek lambat...lagi plak dk pikir pasal preparation utk naik sem baru neh...n utk sem 2 t plak da kna LI...byk plak keje nk d setelkn utk sem LI t...adoi!!!

FAQ

for years i've been in this FAQ situation..having few monolog session

i keep questioning myself...

what bla bla bla?

why bla bla bla ?

when bla bla bla?

whose bla bla bla?

how bla bla bla?

then i keep answering myself

i dont know...

i dont know...

i dont know...

i dont know...

i dont know...

after answering the question

that i questioned myself

for years and years

i can say that things that happened between us

those sweet memory and time that i valued much for this years

it's just something

we take and keep it safe

in the SimHeart

i hope that we can end up the yada yada thing with 0-0

praying that we can live and enjoy every second of our life

till there's nothing to be regret

spend it wisely till it's time for Malaikat Izrail to ring the bell

a win-win situation for both of us........hope so

please don't take it personal

coz

...IT'S ALL ABOUT LIFE...

p/s: up till this second, you're the best thing that ever happened in my lovestory...

bosan

bosan...bosan...bosan...bosan...bosan...bosan...

terima kasih

sory awak...saya tak mesej btaw awak pasal nenek...saya just btaw kicik n dayah jek...kawan2 laki lain pun tak ramai yang tau..

anyway...pagi tadi time mesej awak masuk, saya tengah tido lagi..penat..tapi bila dengar ur ringtone,terus laju bangun cari phone maxis...thanx sebab amik berat ag pasal saya sikit2...really appreaciate it...

sangat2 rasa cambez bila dapat mesej dari awak...bukan apa,sebab tiap kali saya text awak,jarang bereply..so happy sangat2 la pagi tadi....erm,bila saya mesej n no replies, itu antara sebab kenapa saya btaw kicik n dayah jek...rasa cam tiap kali saya mesej tuh cam mengganggu je..

rasa nak berkawan tapi saya rasa cam awak susah nak terima saya balik tho as a friend..so daripada saya sakitkan hati sape2,better saya stop..kan?

ok2,enough of it...sorry bukan niat nak ungkit or marah,just rasa kecewa bila tiap kali jadi jadi camtuh..rasa makin jauh,jauh yang amat sangat sampaikan saya rasa tak dapat nak jumpa awak da lepas neh walaupun teringin...

kalau ada peluang pon,maybe for the last time, saya nak tengok awak dari jaoh je..tak sanggup nak masuk dekat and ucap selamat tinggal...untuk selamanya..

papepon,saya da amek kata putus,life must go on..tho its hard to move on, tapi saya kena buat keputusan..it best for you n me..especially utk saya sebenarnya coz it really took time for me to forget u...i am doing it slowly.

harap2 memori tu akan vanish sampai ke tahap awak dan saya takkan pernah ingat yang kita saling kenal

before saya betul-betul wishkan selamat tinggal kat awak,saya nak ucapkan terima kasih untuk segala-gala....thanx untuk baju melayu hitam tuh..the same that i wear during abah n nenek punya funeral...thanx utk samuel and kevin cap tuh...thanx 4 untuk spek itam tuh..thanx 4 memory balik ke penang...walaupun sekejap and kita tak banyak bercakap,but still it was a memory that will last forever for me...saya tetap sayang awak cam dulu, xpernah berubah sikit pun...and awak....saya da berubah.......i think...

ok,nanyte malaysia..love ya!!!__bopy__

boring

fuck~
am bored to death
pennyless till i had to break mr.teddy @ my tabung laa
pity him,looks thinner everyday

fuck~
tak tau nak wat ape da kat uma ni
kuar cari keje pn xdpt2
xkan nak maen game sampai bjanggut kot

fuck~
ak benci cuti lame2

saya OK

saya OK..tak perlu risau..kalau benda yang berkaitan dengan ajal maut ni,cam da jadi kebiasaan jek...cukup la setitik air mata menitik masa abah takde dulu..utk kali ni,memang hati kering...xd langsung riak wajah sedih o titis air mata yang menitik keluar..hati ni da cukup tabah n bersedia 24/7 untuk berita-berita yang shocking cmtuh...

ajal maut..satu perkara yang pasti datang dan pergi...sebab kita hidup kat dunia ni cuma a tumpangan sebelum ke alam yang lain...sebelum hisab di hitung kat padang masyar, prepare la pape yang patut luaran dan dalaman...redha utk sumer yang terjadi..

bebelan saya pasal cinta

kawan-kawan selalu nasihat, "ko jangan memilih sangat kalau da rase diri tuh lonely, mana yang datang ko terima je la"....tapi boleh ke kita nak terima person yang kita tak pernah kenal?



kalau dulu masa sekolah, biar bercouple dulu baru berkawan, ibarat kahwin dulu baru bercinta...pastu kita tengok la serasi ke tak...tapi itu baru tahap bercouple, memang la senang nak break pastu rujuk...kalau dah kahwin tapi nak buat perangai macam itu, susah laa...entah sampai talak 3 la kot baru nak berhenti buat perangai..kata kawan-kawan, "alaa,apa yang susah...kalau hati da takde pada dia, ko putus pastu cari lain la...bunga bukan sekuntum bro"



sekarang bila dah meningkat dewasa, umur pun da naik 20an, pandangan pasal percintaan pun da berubah..tak mudah gopoh, tak mudah tertarik...datang bidadari pun, hati still terkunci cuma mulut je yang memuji...sebab kita sedar di mana taraf kita pada pandangan mereka yang begitu..sekadar kawan mungkin...itupun pada yang sudi.. kalau dulu, pantang nampak yang cantik, mula rasa diri tula yang paling handsome, paling kacak...dengan megah pergi minta nombor phone...tapi sekarang, kaedahnya lain sedikit, mesti la dengan sabar and teratur stepnya...firstly minta la email...pastu, komen-komen la di wall...secondly, add la di YM..bila sudah selesa sesama sendiri, bagi la phonenumber kita sendiri..mungkin better dari meminta seperti di zaman sekolah..step yang seterusnya mungkin da boleh korang bayangkan macam mana kan?



tapi itu pada yang da sembuh dari hati yang terluka...macam mana untuk mereka yang pegang pada janji? perlu ke janji-janji tuh kita lupakan? tak valid kah kalau janji tuh di buat pada usia remaja di zaman cinta monyet tapi masih dipegang janji itu sampai ke sekarang? janji-janji untuk tidak lupakan si dia bila sudah putus...janji-janji untuk menjaga si dia sampai bila-bila...janji-janji untuk berkahwin pada usia 28 mungkin?



tapi masa itu emas...tak guna kalau sekadar menunggu membabi buta...she's not yours to be claim whenever you want...tak guna kalau kita buat-buat tak nampak pada kesudahan yang dah kita tahu...

mocking shithead

cant u'all juz stop what u've been doing lately?

uploading pictures that maybe to u its funny but humiliating to them?

mocking them bout their appearance, physicals..

its not that they ask to be born like that

u still call urself a friend after all these

n u still have the guts to look into their eyes

they smile when u mock them but u never know that they cry inside

this post is not to offend anyone but just to remind u that those people

that u keep on mocking and make fun of have something soft so called feelings.

never trigger the bomb if u still love them as ur friend

people make funny mistakes yet still embarassing..

no need for the world to be tell bout some story that can only make u smile but others to cry

don't be to selfish la brader n sistah..love them like they love u

syukur that i'm not the victim but still i hate to see friend turns to foe coz of this

GJC in LEDANG

malam new year which is 31st is one hell of a night..havoc btol cabana malam tuh..fokus update kali ni utk citer pasal GJC kat gunung ledang...GJC as in Geomatic Junior Camp or FYE (First Year Experience) agak bez laa kot utk dorg...coz ak pegi pon sendirian berhad...

gunung ledang neh letak kat area2 tangkak n sagil...kire tengah2 laa..travel ngn 3bijik keter,n sumer anak2 muda yg dalam mood nk happy2 abeskan duit yg mmg xd sbna nyer...tp sbb nk sonok2 ngn kkwn,so pegi jgk laa...

tarikhnyer 1,2,3 Januari...sempat gak laa snap few pix yg cambest tp sumer pki fon n kamera orang laen...so xd pix yg dpt d upload stkt ni...

gunung ledang tuh ad dlm 7 ke 8 checkpoint...tapi yg ktorg dbenarkan naik jz smpi CP4 saje...ad beberapa insiden yg mnyebabkn ktorg xdpat nak naik sampai atas...naseb bek gk laa,sbb naek smpi CP4 tuh pon da macam nak meninggal n amek mase 6 7 jam utk sampai...klu ke puncak xtaw laa,mybe smggu r kot...ha3

nama utk checkpoint tuh pon pelik2...1st CP is Bukit Semput n 2nd CP is Kolam Gajah...yg Bukit Semput tuh xtaw mana datang,tapi yg Kolam Gajah tuh, kalo ikt kate brader tourguide,gajah2 liar mandi kt c2...ad few spot yg jd tumpuan gajah n name2 pn sempena gajah...antra yg ak igt Kolam Gajah n Kolam Anak Gajah...kat CP3 ad kolam Puncak Mahligai...tah sape bg name pon xtaw laa...agaknyer tym Tuah naek, tym tuh die bg name kot...kt area2 Kolam Gajah tuh, ad sejarah dri local people kate tmpt tapak kaki Hang Tuah n tempat sembahyang yg mmg tunjuk direct ke arah kiblat(?????....memang sembahyang hala ke kiblat laa kan? xphm gk story brader tuh). tak sempat nk bljr sejarah lame2 sbb air yg sejuk tuh cm bez je utk brendam...mybe luck xd kot tym tuh,sbb sampai2 jek,ujan trun,lebat lak tuh...so mandi skjp je laa...yg frustnyer,dan2 tym ktorg nak trun tuh,ujan brenti...arrghhh!!!

otw trun n naik sgt2 mncabar r sbb tanah becak n lereng die sgt2 laa steep...so kna bjaga2...klu x arwah...alhamdulillah xd yg arwah...sumer blk ngn selamat...nuek nyaris2 nk pitam,sbb ktorg naik gunung tanpa bekalan makanan..yg ad cuma rkok n air jek..tu pon xsmpi halfway,air da abes...mmg mncabar la an...ha3

dpt teguk air gunung mmg bez,pas2 maen2 ngn ikan seluang,cm dpt massage dri ikan tuh..dorg gigit2 kaki yg cekam,cagu,n macam2 lg laa..even parut bekas ak accident pon telannyer sekali...trus clear n baek sket r luka2 tuh...mmg sonok...

program ngn junior xbyk pn yg ktorg join,tp dapat cam la 2 3 muka yg feymes...mane yg kacak,yg cantik, yg sempoi n byk ckp tuh mmg igt r...yg pasif sket minx maap laa,xd harapan nk melekat dlm minda..hu3 Mybe next tym igt r kot...hu3

ad gk r 2 3 yg cm kerek2 tp nevermind laa,adat manusia,sumer ad ego so kter biarkn saje...janji x kacau hidup kter an3???

i cant please all of them all the time but i tried too



hoping that my efforts are good enough



they cant please me all the time



hoping that their efforts are good enough



sometimes harsh words spills unintend



you had to learn how to swallow it though



sometimes sweet words are just lie



feel free to accept it as a compliment

but please....i'm tired of this nak jaga hati kawan-kawan when they never care or appreciate it..

AWEK BARU…CHANTEK KAN?

Nama diberi Alia Maisarah binti Ghazali…macam nama lagu kan?...Ha3

Dia tak banyak kerenah…sangat comel!!! Cute, cuddly, adorable…ha3

Mata yang galak, dahi yang agak luas tapi still menampakkan kecomelan dia…

Hidung dia, walaupun tak mancung macam ex gue, tapi bulat2 gitu cam hidung kartun…

Pipi die…huisssh!!! Memang rasa nak gigit-gigit jer…tembam, soft and tender…macam ayam KFC gitu…ha3

Cane,comel tak die???!!!.....comel kan…… :D

 

 

update

It's been a while since I last post my update…it's not that im too busy with life, it's just that lately im too lazy too type it….yet life is getting happier and harder than I imagined during childhood..

Johor is still new to me unlike Perak, Penang or Kedah…meeting new people with lots of kerenah, trying to think and act like adults. God I hate it to be turn into adults. People won't be calling me Bopy anymore. Getting the Encik Aiman or Mr. Aiman status I think.

Everything is changing around me. People move on with their life…but what about me? Did I ever manage to get good result? Did I ever change my sociallife-approach-style? Did I turn to be a good son for the past few years? Did I ever forget her? I think not…I haven't change…well maybe not all things are suppose to be change.

Dayah with her new special boyfriend I think…maybe he's the..well, that's what she think…hope they'll last longer than the old one.

Kicik…I think she's still searching…I still remember her complaining bout "suka pada orang yang tak suka pada dia"….no worry dear, those guys doesn't know who they're missing and messing with.

Pokjak, still in jiwa kacau mode I think…being depressed by an incidents that cause him 0% chances in getting that girl, but I think he can find another one. Much better than her of course.

As for me, I am putting myself in a trap set by myself…having few special friends are made me choose either one if I still wanna move on..it's a hard one coz they both are so nice and sweet. Don't wanna hurt them both and hurt my future-28-bride-to-be…so it is about 3 people's feeling and I don't really know what should I do exactly…a promise is a promise and yes, I will wait for her but do I have to torture myself? Does she really cares bout me? Does she really want to be with me? Never believe it when a man would propose a woman but can you believe it is vice versa?

Huuu…let's just forget bout the feeling first…the point is that I still have someone that I can take care of and I know that someone still cares bout me…

Never forget the past, as if it not because of it, we are not who we are today, never forget bout today as in present, it is who you are right now…after all of the past and today things, you won't be forgetting it all in future… a quote made myself..sounds silly right? It's just a reminder for not forgetting the past, present and future.

 

P/S : thanks for those who still read my blogs.. I'm still writing but won't be updating oftenly…sorry

meracau

sekarang da start study week but still i'm not prepared to face the paper...damn!!!

dalam kepala pikir nak balik rumah, lepak-lepak, tidur n ronda-ronda kemana-mana tempat yang bez...

ada terpikir gak nak cari kerja, gain some money to support life, agak sengkek bila hujung-hujung sem ni...

kawan-kawan MRSM Lenggong sekalian, sila ambil perhatian, saudara Hazim Idris a.k.a Kojek tengah plan nk wat reunion utk dak2 form 5 batch kita...so, korang semua sila la support beliau ya..dijangkakan kita akan wat style holiday trip, maybe 3hari 2malam or 4hari 3malam...depend kat kita semua...pasal venue, activity, food n drinks, tempat nak stay etc....korang boleh tanya Kojek sendiri...add beliau kat FACEBOOK and korang ley tanya detail lagi kat dia....please support ya, untuk mengeratkan lagi hubungan silaturahim antara kita semua...

bosan btol la dok bilik sorang-sorang...roomate tah kemana hilang tak tau...kalo dia ada pon,masing-masing cam bizi jek..kadang-kadang ada gak la wat sesi pillow talk ngan dia...tapi ada la dalam 2 minggu sekali...lately semua bajet nak ngadap buku@laptop utk study note dari lecturer...tapi bila tengok balik, rupanya semua nga bizi main facebook,game o layan movie..memang terbaik dari ladang wa cakap lu...hu3

sekian saja edisi meracau...salam~

bila jiwa mula meracau

kenapa mesti ada sifat sayang dan benci?

kenapa mesti ada hidup dan mati?

kenapa mesti ada yes or no sebagai jawapan?

kenapa mesti ada bahagia dan sengsara?

kenapa mesti ada berjaya dan gagal?

kenapa mesti ada 2 option sahaja dalam hidup?


coz in life Allah give us choices...its like a test for us..the result depends n the way we tackle it....a 'no' answer can be positive if we muhasabah ourself ~ Kicik

itu la namanya kehidupan..banyak dugaan dan tanda tanya...susah nak jawab persoalan ko, hanya Allah je yang tahu.. ~ Pija Lala

itulah keadilan ~ Kumin

bersyukurlah sebab kita diberi 2 option daripada 3 atau 4 option ~ Jard

sebab kita tak boleh pilih kedua-duanya ~ Dayah


TQ semua untuk meluruskan kembali pegangan n prinsip hidup ku...korg memang best laa..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

kepada semua kawan2 yg still kat malaysia,yg baru nak fly or yg da fly...saya...MOHD AIMAN BIN MOHD KAMAROL BAHARI....ingin menyusun 10jari kaki dan tangan utk memohon maaf dan ampun seandainya ader terkasar bahasa, terkutok lebih, terpangkah/terdrop smpi korang saket aty, ak harap korg maafkan la ek..perkara mudah utk manusia biasa melakukan kesalahan dan mengulanginya, tapi adalah sesuatu yg sukar utk memohon maaf atau memaafkan..tapi sebagai khalifahnya, insyaallah kita semua boleh cuba...pada yg rasa ader wat salah ngn ak,tho mcm poyo sket bunyinyer,tapi ak dgn seikhlas hati maafkan korg...kter kira 0-0...xpon 1-1...pape je r janji seri o takde salah paham n saket aty masa depan kelak...sekian,selamat hari raya aidilfitri, kemslm kat family korg sumer n take care...luv y'all...salam lebaran.

berita ramadhan

ramadhan kali ni berlalu cam biase ngn ak slmt menjalankan ibadah puasa...tiap kali ramadhan je,mesti ak teringat kat arwah abah..da 4taon die takde..moga roh dia dicucuri rahmat...

lagi ak teringatkan die bler ak dapat berita pasal atok Nuek n abang Sni meninggal..sensitif btol ak bler dengar pasal kematian neh...atok Nuek ader sakit ape tah,tambahan ngn umur die da lanjut...abang Sni plak meninggal sebab kemalangan kat HiWay Kesas... meninggal pada 14 September 2009 pukul 7.37malam...ak baru pas gaduh ngn Sni mggu lepas, taw2 dapat berita sedih cmneh lak..cm guilty lak ak ttbe..

both of them neh 2 2 jenis ceria n hepy go lucky, ak ase cam tak bez plak bler tgk dorg sedey...kalo bleh taknak dorg sedey lame2...Nuek, maybe OK sbb die laki tapi Sni ni cm susah sket jer...tp harap2 die n family OK...takziah dari ak...moga2 korang teruskan hidup ea...kematian tuh ajar banyak benda,amek mende tuh sebagai pengajaran utk kiter yg masih hidup kat muka bumi neh..

hurmm...lg 1 berita yg ak bru taw, tanggal 30 September neh, Wan Muhammad Khairul Afif bin Abdullah a.k.a Afif yg kira cam bro/bestbuddy ak tym skola dlu da nak fly da g UK da.. dia dapat further study kat University of Southampton bidang engineering...tak sangke bro, mu tak jadi doktor...dlu kemain ag training ngn abah mu sunatkan org sumer2...ha3 Agak terkejut n sedey gk r,sbb ak nge die neh,tho da jrg kontek sbb f4 f5 da separate,tp kenangan nakal2, tunjuk ajar die sumer n perhubungan akrab 1 mase dlu tuh still igt ag r..sebenarnya memang ak da taw dia nak fly,tapi ak xbajet dalam jangka masa terdekat neh...ingatkan same ngn ihsan,q n yusri fly taon dpn...rupanya pas raya da nak fly da...adoyai~

Cam touching lak ak,bler kenang balik sumer kawan2 yg 1 masa dulu kamceng da nak fly belajar jaoh2..nyesal sbb tak belajar rajin2 pon ader...tp xpe,mybe rezki dorg kat sane, rezki ak kat sini...sape taw...ak doakan ko slmt sampai kat UK sane n bljr leklok,jgn lupe kkwn kt Malaysia neh..kalo ader umor panjang,kter jumpe ag...

k,tu je r nukilan ak utk update terbaru neh..harap2 syawal yg bakal menjelma neh bawak seribu satu makna yg baru dlm hidup kita sumer...

.....

update latest dari ak..tak sempat nak mengarang pasal aktiviti-aktiviti harian..sepanjang sem ni,macam-macam benda yg aku join n buat.. assignment, MHS, ProKid n etc...

kpd kengkawan yg baru buat blog, tengah update blog, do keep it up coz ak sangat2 suka baca korg nyer penulisan. thats the only way ak ley tau perkembangan hidup kengkawan sekalian..

~bopy~

saya mahu ini

tak larat nak tanggung minyak keter...saya mahu ini!! boleh tak??

another story yg xd kaitan lgsg with mylife.aha.

she is there.alone.left by him.and she fell off to the ground.she cried.a lot.she want to kill herself.she cant live without him.she trully cant.well she thinks she lost everything when he left.and then U came.U came to save her.the girl who is very pathetic.who cried a lot for the guy that she thought will be her prince charming forever.and when U came,at first she didnt feel anything.she dont have any feelings for U.she accepts U as a friend.and then the friendship grew.something unexpected.but the feeling she cant denied.never can be denied.her friends tells her to back off.cause they thought it is just a bloody feelings.but she never will...and she dont have a reason.

and when U came,she smiled a lot,instead of shedding the tears.and when she cried.U r there for her.and U r giving her hope to live again.U brings smile and laughter to her life again.'no more tears'.thats what U said.and the feelings grew.and u promise to accept her just the way she is when U knew about her past.and U promise that U will try ur best to take care of her heart.U dont want to break it.U dont want to see her cry anymore.

but then U dissapear from her life.without a single sign,U just dissapear.and she wondered y.she tried to reach U for so many times but......there's not a single sign saying that U will appear again in her life.she cried again.losing hope again.there it goes all her smiles,all her laughters.and her life is filled with tears again.and one day,U appear in her life again.but U that appeared again.is totally not the same with the U that appear few weeks before that.U r different.the way U treat her.the way U talk.U dont want to msg her anymore.U didnt even says hello when U appear online.and U totally ignore her.she's clueless.should she put more hope?should she keep the feeling?she's totally blur.she hate that feeling.hated it so much.she hated the tears.she hated when her heart is bleeding.she cant think.she cant decide.would U explain.cause she knows that U want to wait.and U need time.but why are U changing drastically?she's so blur.

a song yg cam best.lala.

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing ok

-to be continued-

muda mudi suka ria

Seronoknya jadi orang muda. Bersuka ria dengan duit mak ayah. Tapi ke arah yang berguna la..hahaha..cuti ni kitorang advance sikit dari cuti yang before neh… selalunya main futsal jer, tapi kali ni ader aktiviti tambahan…kitorang ke lata tembakah…asalnya memang ader planning nak mandi manda,Cuma kitorang tak tau port yang bez…lucky us, few days before lepas main futsal, kitorang jumper Ada..die yang beria ajak kitorang pegi sama ke lata tembakah neh..selaku ketua darjah yang tak bertauliah, ak pon suruh la dak2 ni cari sape2 yang patot yang rasa nak join… dapat la dalam 2 kereta…

Kumin,cherah,dinpang,dodol,DJ,jard,bopi(aku la tuh)and pokmi campur dengan 3 orang kawan bal…ni la mereka2 yang join trip to air terjun….agak bersenang lenang sebenarnyer ktorang since barang2 utk ber barbeque sumernyer Bal yang setelkan…ayam,jarring,mi,arang n macam2 lagi la barang2 yang patot,sumernyer Bal yang prepare…kirenyer kitorang sampai juz bayar jer kat Bal.

Perjalanan pergi patotnyer start pukul 9am tapi since ketua darjah pon lewat,maka pukul 11am baru ktorg gerak pergi sane…sampai kat Jerteh,gerak gi umah Bal lak,amek barang2…semayang zohor n rehat2 jap…ada da bising sebab patutnyer ktorang sampai kat air terjun tuh lagi awal dari dorg…biar la die..hahahaha

Memang puas ati mandi kat situ…environment die…perghhhhhhh!!! Memang chantek gler….macam tak cayer Malaysia ader tempat air terjun yang cun cmtuh…ader la few pix yang sempat di snap…tapi gambar agak blur sebab percikan air terjun..kalau la kawan2 yang lain dok Kelantan jugak,kan bez…tapi nak wat cane,ader yang kat perak,ader yg dok kedah…sumer da pecah2 da..tapi takpe,ktorang tlg enjoy utk korg…hahahah

jari oh jari II

ngeri tak? ngeri la weh...berlobang jari ak neh...

kedah n perak

selasa lepas follow pokmi gi kedah...actually die nak ajak ramai2 pergi sana,tapi sebab invitation tuh last minute,so ak sorang je la yg pegi...ktorang bertolak pukul 12tghmlm dari kelantan and sampai di kulim,kedah dalam pukul 4 gitu...it was surely a fast-n-furious drive...otw tuh sempat gak terserempak ngn sekor gajah...1st time kot nampak selama dok berulang alik ke perak dari kelantan. maybe sebab ni 1st tym gerak malam...bila sampai kat umah sewa pokmi,memang tak sempat nak wat pape,tros tdo...

dalam 3ari 2 mlm ak kat sana,memang trase susahnyer dok umah sewa...bangun pagi dengan keadaan lapar,nak g makan,kedai makan jauh2 lak tuh...nak masak,impossible laa,da kate bujang,yang ader kt umah tuh cuma pinggan mangkok,sudugarfu and cerek jer...alat2 wajib utk memasak megi...ha3 Tapi ktorg takde la mencekik megi jer,kuar makan nasi gak...

aktiviti kat kedah ni,tak banyak tapi memboringkan...bangun pagi dlm pkl10 gitu,siap2 mandi sumer,da gerak g chain ferry nuh...temankan mi n dak2 group dia cari barang2 utk projek dorg...tugas ak kat sana,kira merangkap PA and drebar tambahan dak2 tuh laa..balik umah dalam pukul 6ptg gitu,ktorg rehat2 jap,pastu malam kuar meronggeng...sampai ker Perda mi bwk...karok,snuker,bundle sumer...quite fun..

jumaat petang,ktorg gerak ke perak...ktorg masuk balik mrsm lenggong....tempat bersejarah beb...ga3 Tak banyak yg berubah except ader 3 bijik chalet kot kt paya dalam dusun sane..pas2 ader laa jalan berbumbung kt dlm tuh...erm,lain2 rasenyer cm da takde da kot yg bez...lepas keluar dari maktab,ktorg igt nak terus g kuale...but then ak tringat,last few days ak ader msj dengan si naim a.k.a koshi....ape ag,terus patah balik cari die kat changkat berangan nuh...nasib baik ak penah sampai umah dia tym form2 dulu...

lepas culik koshi,ktorg gerak ke kuale...pegi umah wan azli kat taman jasa...mmg selalunyer kalo ak sampai kuale,umah die la jadi port...kat taiping umah nando,tp da lame gler kot xsampai sane...ye la,nando kan selalu bz ngn xtvt2 die...takpela,biarkan die dengan life die...selagi die hepy..ktorg lepak kt lembah minum cendol...macam biase,bler da kawan lame bjmpe,maka terbukak la cerita-cerita lama...gelak tawa tangis malu kat sekolah...xpnah jemu tiap-tiap kali cerita tuh terungkit...rase macam nak turn back time pastuh buat benda yang lagi extreme dari yg ktorg buat dulu...tapi itu la,life must go on...sampai ke maghrib ktorg lepak kt lembag tuh dengan germs(apiz rahim)....pas calling makcik n ami,malam tu nyer plan g makan kuey tiaw kt chandan putri....

2030 patotnyer da ader kat kedai sane,tapi dkt pkl 2200 bru smpi sane...tak kesah la,da kate janji melayu kan...ha3...tym lepak tuh ader rase yg cm xbez sket laa,coz ak cm nk bersembang dgn si gemok n dak2 laki lain but at the same time, ak pon nk bersembang dengan ilya same ami gk...bkn sllu jmpe makcik2 neh...cam banyak benda nk dibualkan tapi timing lak cm tak kena...so juz bley tease dorg sket2 je la...dengan si gemok pon ak tak sempat nak pangkah lebih2...ha3...tapi bez jer,malam tuh cam reunion kecil-kecilan laa...

few pix yg sempat diupload...yg lain ader dengan makcik2 tuh...korg cpt2 la upload n update ur blog...

aku n apiz@germs..

apiz@germs...tapi da kurus da skg

wan azli n koshi kosek@naim

jari oh jari

bayangkan..jari jemari ak yang kecik ni,tercepit kt celah2 tripod...ape jadahnyer tripod itu,nnt ak upload pix nyer...berkaki 3,punya base untuk kita attachkan theodolite..pon akan ku uploadkan pix theodolite tuh...masa mula2 tercepit tuh,takde la rasa sakit mana,tapi bila da sampai kat klinik,bayangkan nurse tuh cuci luka macam dia cuci ikan baru lepas kena siang..sakit wooo!!!

masa tuh ak tengok jari ak berlubang, tulang ak bukan patah biasa tapi hancur...bila result x-ray keluar,ak memang bernasib baik laa...coz sendi ak takde pape...tinggal sikit je tulang kat ujung jari kelingking tuh...so,jari ak still boleh dibengkokkan la kan...cuma yang ak risau anda takut,maybe sensor kat jari tuh da mati o da tak boleh guna...meaning that ujung jari kelingking tuh da takde deria rasa laa...tak bleh nak rasa pedih ke,panas ke ape...sedih....... :(

lepas jari ni dicuci,nurse balutkan dengan kain and dia pasangkan satu gajet ni...biasa kalo orang patah tangan, kita simen pastuh anduhkan...tp since jari ak ni kecik comey jer,so die juz balut pastu pasang besi tuh...actually besi tuh kita lekatkan jer kat jari tuh...pon akan ku uploadkan nanti...

ak kira2,da sebulan lebih da kot jari ak ni patah...bila da kena cmneh, buat ak terpikir, pe dosa yang ak da buat? hmmm...tu la manusia kan? bila da kena bala,baru nak pikir salah silap masing2...time tuh baru nak ingat Allah...time tuh jugak baru nak bersyukur dengan anugerah anggota badan yang Allah kasi...takpelah,maybe ak tak dapat pikir pe salah ak...tapi yang pasti, ak harap ape yang jadi kat ak ni,boleh jadi iktibar kat kawan-kawan yang lain...iktibar yang apa-apa pon perbuatan kita, korang tunggu je la balasan dia...tak kira baik o buruk perbuatan tuh, balasan dia gerenti ada, cuma cepat o lambat jer perbuatan korang tuh Allah balas..beware.....






tripod





theodolite

you're joking right?

let's get married at 28?
gosh,never thought that someone would dare to ask me to get married.
happy but confuse at the same time...happy coz you want to marry me and confuse sape yang patut lamar sape? and what is your intention actually? to be frank i still can accept it, if it is a bad joke but if it is a prank.........i surrender... ok u got me....

kalau sebelum-sebelum ni saya dok rindu kat awak macam orang gila,but then bila awak tanya soalan neh,out of sudden saya terfikir balik pasal yang lepas-lepas...baru saya sedar yang saya rindu kat awak bukan as my lover forever ke ape...tapi rindu sebagai seorang kawan yang betul-betul concern pasal awak...pasal kahwin tuh,kita tengok lagi 8 tahun ea...tapi awak kena jawab dulu soalan yang saya kasi malam tuh baru la kita kahwin...ok dear?

PAST AND FUTURE

what turns a boy to be a man is their past.

what turns a girl to be a woman is their future.

why?

a boy learn from the past to be a better man.

for girl....better think it yourself

ridiculous? maybe...

what past is past....it is not the present or future..

let the past go and take care of the present and future

but then

just forget the gloom past when you have the bright future ahead.

ak tak tau ape yang ak bebelkan tapi ini yang tiba-tiba datang masa tengah cari ilham.

hmmm...there are few parts in our life that when we think about it,trying our best to solve it but yet it still just the same...so, the best solution is that just let it go,let it past...it might hurt you but still it is just for that particular moment...maybe......urgghhhh bebelan yang tah pape...desperate to update this damn blog.. :-S

selamat hari umi

assalamualaikum umi,

Selamat ari umi semalaysia dan sedunia...abe sayang umi sgt6...terima kasih sebab lahirkn abe kat dunia neh..kalau bukan sbb umi kasi abe menumpang kat dalam perut tuh utk 9bln 10 ari,maybe abe takkn dapat peluang untuk tengok dunia neh...terima kasih sangat...abe bangga sebab dilahirkan umi,bangga sangat2 sebab dapat menumpang dalam perut seorang ibu yg loveable,caring,sweet,kind dan sebagainyer...

Kagum dengan umi n ibu-ibu tunggal yg lain sebab tanpa bantuan suami yg da kembali ke rahmatullah,umi still gigih n tabah membesarkan anak-anak yang nakal..mane tak nyer,4 laki 1 perempuan...yg perempuan pn da tak macam perempuan da..ha3...

Terima kasih jugak kat umi sebab bagi didikan dunia dan akhirat yang cukup..cukup utk abe guna sebagai panduan hidup kat dunia fana neh...abe nak minta maaf ngn umi sebab banyak buat salah dengan umi...banyak sangat compared dengan kebaikan...abe doakan umi panjang umur,n kalau diizinkan Allah,abe harap abe dapat peluang untuk balas semua jasa umi sebelum Allah ambil balik umi dari kami adik beradik..abe tak sempat nak balas jasa abah,jadi abe berazam nak balas jasa umi...insyaallah..

Mutiara hati II

Berjalanlah dengan penuh harapan walaupun hidup ini tak selalu bahagia.

Sedekahkanlah satu senyuman walau di hatimu tak mampu lagi bertahan.

Belajarlah memaafkan walau dirimu terluka

Berhentilah member alas an walau ingin menyatakan kebenaran

Hiduplah dalam iman walau hari di penuhi dugaan dan berpeganglah pada Allah walau Dia tak kelihatan

Bukti kasihNya, kita wujud di dunia pinjaman ini

Ada sebab bila berlaku sesuatu perkara dan yakinlah Allah menguji setiap hambaNya yang mengakui keimanan kepadaNya.

Jangan terlalu banyak berkhayal untuk menjadi yang terbaik kerana hidup tak semudah itu.

Perihal kehidupan sebagai cermin dalam menilai sebuah pengabdian yang hakiki lagi abadi

Moga lelahmu dihargai walau dicemuh insani.

Mutiara hati

Orang yang lalai dan jahil apabila bangun untuk berwudhu', syaitan-syaitan mengerumuniya seperti mana lalat yang berkerumun di atas setitik madu.. Apabila dia bertakbir, malaikat menilik ke dalam hatinya.. Apabila terdapat yang lain di dalam hatinya yang lebih besar daripada Allah s.w.t, maka malaikat berkata, "Kamu berdusta.. Tidaklah Allah di dalam hati kamu itu seperti yang kamu ucapkan." Maka dihamburkan dari hatinya asap memasuki ufuk langit sehingga menjadi hijab yang menutupi hatinya.. Maka dinding itu menolak solatnya dan syaita-syaitan menelan hatinya.. Maka sentiasalah syaitan menghembus dan berbisik-bisik di dalam hatinya serta menghiasinya (memperdayakannya) sehingga dia meninggalkan solatnya dalam keadaan dia tidak dapat berfikir apa yang telah dilakukannya.".. syarah al Hikam

 

    

HIDUP INI

Hidup ni susah kita nak duga…

Kadang-kadang kite rasa dekat sangat dengan seseorang

Tapi……..

Hakikatnya kita sebenarnya jauh dari dia..

Walaupun kita dapat capai dan genggam tangan dia

Tapi……..

Belum tentuh hati dia daoat kita salami.

Mungkin kadang-kadang kita dapat tengok dia ketawa tapi kita tak tahu apa makna disebaliknya.

Bila dia menangis, kita rasa kehadiran kita dapat memujuknya

Walhal…..

Kehadiran kita langsung tak disenanginya.

Rencah dunia…..

Kita takkan tahu siapa kawan dan siapa lawan

Sampailah satu masa kita jatuh.

Adakah tangan itu akan menghulurkan bantuan atau kita akan ditinggalkan.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

THEY LOVE YOU….BUT THEY'RE NOT YOUR LOVER

THEY CARE FOR YOU BUT THEY'RE NOT FROM YOUR FAMILY

THEY'RE READY TO SHARE YOUR PAIN BUT THEY'RE NOT IN YOUR BLOOD RELATION

THEY ARE…….

 

 

FRIENDS….!!

M.A.R.L.B.O.R.O

Man

Always

Remember

Loves

Because

Of

Romance

Only

i miss her badly

angau da terok giler da ak neh...rindu ku melampau-melampau sampai 2 3 minggu lepas,ader la dalam 4 5 ari ak mimpi...huu...what should i do? nk kontek but then ak malu kat die ngn kesalahan ak yg lepas n ketidakmatangan ku..sumpah bodoh giler bler ak pikir benda2 lepas...ader orang ckp jz forget da past,go on with it tapi boleh ke ak bwt cmtuh? patut ker ak lupe sumer bnda yg ak da ckp kt die n boleh ker die lupekan jugak bnda2 yg ak da ckp kt die?...hmmm...sgt merindui kamu......badly..

kesibukan

kebelakangan ni aku agak sibuk dengan kerja-kerja sekretariat...langsung takde masa untuk diri sendiri tapi still aku luangkan masa dengan kawan-kawan...lepas habis meeting, turun lepak dengan kawan-kawan di cafe FKE..latest port since semua dah ada transport sendiri..kalau tak lepak dengan boys, lepak dengan pokjak,dayah and kicik...well, apa yang aku maksudkan dengan masa untuk diri sendiri is that i got no time to make notes,study for the fieldwork yet for the test and hopefully not for final..

pokjak pun sama-sama sibuk macam aku,tapi dia lain...otak dia pickup, dengar je dah boleh tangkap apa yang lecturer ajar.. unlike me.. rasa cam nak resign tapi tak ke macam bacul lak perbuatan aku tuh? lari dari tanggungjawab yang dah diberi...ooppsss, lupa lak...FYI, aku "dengan rela hati" jadi pengarah projek untuk Festival Kolej...turun naik pejabat pengetua hari-hari...memang pening kepala, tapi dengan aktif camneh, ak dapat mix dengan student dari kos yang lain...meaning that i got new friend...girlfriend jer yang belum ada baru...ha3

can you imagine, preparing paperwork is the toughest job, mengalahkan nak siapkan report fieldwork...salah sikit je pon, terus kena reject...WTF!!! tapi betul jugak, kalau pengetua luluskan dengan kerja yang cikai, kat HEP belum tentu lulus. Luckly got AJK yang ok..kalau tak, memang semua kerja aku la yang buat...

wish had more time and had a very good, super, tremendous fluent english so that i wont have to update my blog i malay..tapi apa kan daya, masa itu mencemburui saya and my english is not that good...

to friends out there, sorry coz da lama tak contact korang especially my baby...ever since that day kita dah makin jauh...dont you think so? tapi takpe, macam dalam kad yang awak bagi, i'll never forget to not forget you my dear..sekian update untuk kali ni....salam

L.O.V.E

We think about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it.

When we don't have, it we search for it and when we discover it we don't know what to do with it.

We fear losing it. It is our source of pleasure and pain but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next.

It's a short word easy to spell, difficult to define, and…….IMPOSSIBLE to live without.

 

 

p/s : terkenang si dia tiap masa

ATTENTION......PERHATIAN

http://akhisalman.blogspot.com/

What does it feels like?

What does it feels like when you were told by doctor that you have some kind of illness that can paralyze you? What do you feel when in future, your sons and daughter come home, greet you, hug you, kiss you but you actually couldn't do anything even saying thank you? Worst when their feeling is hurt suddenly though its not done in purpose? Is it okay for you to not think about it when you are actually going to live your life for about 20 or 30 years with your love one, if there still one before you die cause of oldness? What if Allah wouldn't let you to but let you have the chances to see persons that you see their birth to die earlier than you? Then what bout you? who would take care of you when everyone got their own responsible towards their family. Would you come first before their family? maybe, to make thing worst for you, at the end of your time, you suffered dying alone. ALONE. Something that are avoided from by every single creature that live on earth.

I couldn't stop myself from imagining how my life would end in future. Would there be someone there to stay by my side at the hospital or home while I'm lying on my bed, waiting for sakaratulmaut to come and take what have been given by Him…LIFE.

The same thought I've imagine when Abah was lying on his bed, staring at people that came to visit him. Friend, family, colleague. What actually he was thinking of when he saw us coming everyday. Those he feel that he's a burden to us? Hope not cause for me, I think its how Allah show me and my siblings that it is our turn to take care of him like he use to do for us back in those days when we're still little. I even thought of doing the same like he'd done to atuk. Keeps the old man accompany. Coz atuk also got stroke that actually paralyze him. I don't know much bout this stroke thing but as far as I know, either your left brain or right brain had stop functioning. Both has different function. That's all the knowledge that I've got bout this illness.

On the day he pass away, it was Pak Da that came to inform me bout it. I was really shock but I manage to control my feeling back there. With his old red Proton Saga, we both went back to Kelantan straight away that night. Abah died during maghrib azan and I'm supposed to be home by next morning before the funeral. Actually, I was at home already a day before he pass away, when he first got his stroke. Uncle Nor, Aunt Imah and Aunt Jah that came to take me back home. At that time, it was not as shocking as the day Pak Da came coz I was told first by Umi bout Abah condition. During the way back to Kelantan for both journey, the adults already told me to be prepare of the circumstances that might come I future. Just in case. When went back with Pak Da, I was touch by Mimi. With her help, the girls recite Yasin's for abah. Thanks baby. You've been really helpful that night for the yasin and the call.

We arrived home at about 4 something in the morning after a non-stop journey. Thanks also too Pak Da. Feel pity to that old man had to drove all the way home. Couldn't do anything except pray to Allah for him and his family. that morning, after finishing all the process, its was time for our last chance to see abah. he looks really peaceful and I'm glad he is. At that time, all of us kiss him and cry but as for me, I tried to not cry in front of my siblings and umi coz I don't want to be seen by them a weakling for dropping tears because of something that has been in the Qada and Qadar Allah. Suddenly, while I was trying to control my feelings, tears was dripping from my eyes when I see Adib, my youngest brother started to cry. he was 7 at that time. He asked me why they dress abah that way and why abah close his eyes all the time. I just don't know what would be the best answer at that time except to hug him and wipe his tears.

It's been 3 years since abah pass away. During the first year, everyone still hadn't forgot him. Adib keep asking bout him for bout a month or two I think. Che Su, abah's youngest sister even called me Kamarol when he saw me. Not to mention how umi, Amalina, Akram and Azrie. As for me, I did had a dream bout him a couple of time being at home like he had never been taken away by Allah. It was actually a hard time for us when umi need to manage back our financial. Wish that I could help her in much better way but I couldn't. Feels like I need to do something as the eldest, I went for work. Having the early stage of how hard it was to earn money. Only Allah know how much I missed abah. Years past and now its 2009, we've may not mention him in our daily conversation but I know, deep inside, we all missed him…A LOT…Ya Allah, help us to live through our life in future, make us a better man whenever a new day start. And do gather us back with abah at Syurga Firdaus. Amin……

Progress in UTM

A month of holiday doesn't change me a lot. Still the old me though I did thought bout changing to a new me. But hell its hard for me. My habits turn out to be my lifestyle since finish school. At school time back there, there was this thinking where thought that it'd be cool where I get the chance to smoke in public instead of a hostel's toilet and get scrammed by Ali, get to puts on anything as long as it is called cloths and most of all wont have homeworks no more, got to spend money by my own without asking Umi what can or can't buy thing.

But then I realize that being a 20 years old student aren't just like I've been expecting before. as for the first wish, without Ali around actually turns me into heavy smoker. 2 year ago maybe just need 2 or 3 sticks per day but it seems that 2 3 sticks is like being add up 1 stick per day everyday until today, I actually can finish up 2 box or in exact amount of 40 stick for about 1 day. Maybe an hour or two hour less than a day would take. Man, at first,am not giving a shit bout how bad my lung could be, but then I know that it's bad when I started to breath just had 100 meter dash though I was actually climbing a 4 floor hostel apartment-lookalike, heading to my room on the fourth floor every single day for this day.

Always being a matter when it comes bout money. Why, people these day feed them self with it, not food and that's include me in the list. No money then there won't be entertainment or food or whatever it is. Who can live life without those craps? Well, maybe there is and tell you what, me to starting to be like one. To save my budget until ptptn is cash in, I cooked myself a pot of rice every night so that the expenses could be cut from RM10 to RM5 a day. As for cigarette, I kind a being a stingy person when it comes for it. Had it left at my room. Just a few inhale each time someone in class went for smokes. It works actually, I could live myself RM100 per a month, way saver than it was during school and MRSM.

For homeworks, there are none of it but still, had to study for the final, and finish up the reports for fieldwork and etc. it's feels like you kind a doing homework actually just that in here we called it assignment. So much for not having any homeworks in university I guess.

As for friends, these guys are cool enough I think to be hangout with. Sempoi and gila-gila is the character that suits all of them yet I still can't put too much trust, hope in them except trying to be kind and patient enough with them in order to get long with them within 4 year onwards. I do miss my colleague during MRSM but seems like what past is past, future is coming and it's sure lot tougher than it is today.

Adapting with the new atmosphere in here actually doesn't loose my patient at all but I'm actually learning without realizing the process that I;m going thru with . So, let's give it a shot. There's no option left anyway though sometimes I myself had this thinking of going for a try to MIAT again. Umi too did ask bout this since I've started in UTM. Got no clue why'd she ask bout it out of sudden. Well, maybe being a surveyor is not what I am suppose to but neither do being an aircraft engineer nor an English teacher that get his TESL oversea and ending up by thanking his uncle for the rest of life. Maybe what I meant to be is just to be a better person that lead his life day by day in a better way. I'm just some guy that enjoys himself getting up by his own from failure and a little help from up there. O Allah, do help me in this journey. Am not getting to the top with no help from you. Something that everyone know.

Bebelan aku di pagi buta neh

Huhuhuh....makin hari makin tua...ntah pbnda la yg wujud,hidup atas bumi ciptaan Allah ni yg makin hari makin muda....bila fikirkan pasal kebesaran Dia,rasa diri ni kerdil betul..hidup kat bumi ciptaan dier ni pon bru 19 taon tapi dalam 19 taon hidup ni macam-macam perkara jadi...macam karangan yang tak sudah-sudah n ak la pengarang skrip untuk drama yang mana ak la cameraman,makeup artist,scriptwriter,director,actor n Dia jadi producer utk filem ak....bkn stkt filem ak je,tp utk sumer filem2 yang wujud,pernah wujud,dan akan wujud...

Dulu time kecik2 time sekolah rendah ak ingatkan itu la zaman paling bez tp nyata ak silap..rupanya banyak lagi zaman2 akan datang yang akan jadi zaman2 yang paling bez dlm hidup ak..zaman membesar ak kat bumi Perak...mmg sayang giler kat negeri tuh...byk pengalaman pahit manis kat saner...kat situ la ak mula knal dunia dan manusia2...kat situ laa ak knal erti sahabat dan cinta...kat situ laa ak membesar..dalam pagar MRSM yang kecik tuh la tmpt mata ak mula celik tp bukan semuanya tapi celik sikit demi sedikit...sebab life ahead akan celikkan lagi mata ak kat dunia yang fana neh..kat MRSM ramai kawan yang menolong ak..even cikgu2 kat sana pon baik2 semuanya...biasa la kalo kena marah tuh,laen org laen kepala,laen ati...tp matlamatnya sama jer,xnk ktorg hanyut...itu pasal perlu ditegur,diingatkan selalu...most people xsuka tp ak suka...sebab kita manusia xpernah lepas dari sifat lalai...

gedebak! gedebik! gedebuk!

Duit simpanan habis di spend untuk 'derak' di Kelatey

GEDEBAK!

Result yang cam teruk menyebabkan diri kecewa dan mengecewakan

GEDEBIK!

Tak dapat pergi ke KL untuk RockTheWorld n join mereka2...

GEDEBUK!

serve u right...itu la ko,belum pape da niat tak baik...
pahala pon Allah bleh kasi terus tho baru niat nak buat benda baik, inikan pulak bala.
sekarang

SENDIRI PIKIRLA LU!!!

SELAMAT MALAM SEMUA

Agak lame x update blog ni ngan cerita benar...selalu dok buat cerita dongeng,tagging n few things yang buat orang menyampah...hu3

Sory yang ikhlas pada yang terkena...(i'm a damn good jerky aite).. :D

Cuti kali ni takde benda yang bez...tapi still cuba menjadikannya seinteresting yang boleh...macam dalam cter GTO,Onizuka sensei cakap...live ur lyf 2 the fullest...so,besides study sampai otak meleleh ikot telinga,kna gk la enjoy...maka kerna itu tiap2 kali cuti,buku adalah antara perkara terlarang untuk dibawa pulang...bukan ape,buat berat beg jer pikul khulu khilir...baca nyer x...ha3

Taktau r apsal tak leh tido malam neh...tadi anta acap botak naik bas balik perak...silap r mamat tuh datang lambat...kalo datang awal2 bleh stay lame sket...ini dak2 ni sumer da stat bz da,ader yang da blk u da pon..dinpang,kumin,midis...hu3 Tapi takpe r cap,ak da bawak ko ronda2 few port lepak yang ader kt kelantan neh n ape aktiviti yang kira ok r yang selalu kitorang buat each time holiday...hu3

Harap2 la kekawan ni stay selamanya...betul cakap kumin.."bopi mane ader kawan laen da,ini jer kawan yang die ader"...mekaseh cik min...anda semua bukan yang terbaik tapi tergolong dalam golongan itu...ak xkeluar sangat dengan member2 lain yang ak kategorikan as GU SEPAK...orang luar cakap member kepada member kepada member kepada member....memang amek nombor fon tapi tak penah kuar lepak same2...kalo jumpe kat tengah jalan tuh len cerita r...biler da jadi kes gu sepak neh, mula r kwar ayat2 macam..."La,member si polan si polan ker?"...."rase2 macam baru semalam maen futsal sesama dengan si polan si polan"....."ko kenal si polan si polan eh"....dan macam2 lagi sendiri pikirlah lu...bukan aper, sebab dorang geng kelawar..siang nyer tido,malam nyer berjaga...ak ni geng sindarela,kuar mane2 pon,slagi ak ader kt bumi kelantan,adalah wajib bagi ak untuk balik sebelum 12tghmlm...ader la jugak sindarela neh terlajak pulang n kena bebel dalam sebakul dua tapi.....dalam cuti ni sindarela ader terlajak gak ta[i umi sengih marah sambil tanya dari mana each time bukak pintu utk ak...agak pelik, macam da bagi lesen tapi kalo ley kwar lewat2 malam pon,nak g mane....koman2 cari mmbr baru pas2 lepak2 isap rokok smbil mnum2 habiskan duit yang tak pernah ader....hu3

Taknak la putus kawan..susah2 kenal hati budi masa kat sekolah dulu,takkan nak tinggal camtu jer...betul tak kawan2? Aku da plan sumthing tp dlm paleotak neh...xley jot down kt paperwork je ag tapi memang perlukan pertolongan korang r...lagi 6 bulan ak kabo balek ea...ni bukan untuk kawan-kawan yang ni jer tapi utk sumer kawan-kawan...wait n see n pray...hope2 sukses..ho3

K la,nak tido da neh...karang semayang suboh sambil pejam mata...tak pasal jer..NYTE!!

p/s : sayer suker hijau n suka sugar love cookies~bibir merah mu...hu3

tag

The last persons who tagged you are: ilya n ami fatini

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
- ilya - kawan sepersekolahan
- ami - juga kawan sepersekolahan

2. Your impressions towards him/her.
- ami : gosip gurl kot
- ilya : senang kate i salute u lah

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
- ami : takde kot
- ilya : makcik tlg aku pikat ratu anggun...ho3

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..
- ami : never will be
- ilya : lagi la impossible

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...
- ami : buat dek je kot
- ilya : pon same lah

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on his/her
- ami : -
- kamil : -

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
- ami : ntah
- ilya : ntah juge

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is
- ami : buat die gelak sampai cramp
- ilya : pon samer

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
- ami : gossip girl! hehe (bopy setuju ngan ilya)
- ilya : luck never fails her when she smiles

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
- poyo kot...tak kesah la..ape ak peduli...mulot orang...kalo mulot binatang ak sembelih dah..ha3

12. The character of you for yourself is?
- saya suka sengal2

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
- pemalas

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
- my late abah

15. For the people who likes you, say something to them.
- mekaseh (nada alleycats)

16. 8 people to tag:
- aie
- farah
- azila
- alia
- ekin shaarani
- takde da
- pon takde
- pon takde jugak


17. who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
- tidak ketahuan

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
- wanita

19. If no. 7 and no. 8 were together, would it be a good thing?
- ~lalala~

20. How about no. 5 and 6?
- no. 6 xtaw r da ader balax ke blom

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
- entah...xpnh jumpe,knal pon ikot blog...ha3

22. Is no. 4 single?
- hak milik kekal encik kamil ghazali

23. Say something about no. 2.
- superfreak (mengikut blog beliau)

sekian saja dari saya....