Khamis, 25 April 2013

next chapter

i am the one to be blame for everything that happened between us. i didnt give u enough attention. it was me that full of flaws. i neglect everything bout u. i forgot when was the first time we met. when was the first time we spend the night out. i never focused to any ur talk. sorry bout that. its not u baby, it was me. it was me that doesnt want to cut off my relation with those girls that u were afraid of. my ex,my sister. im sorry. now they are happy with their life. aya is happy with her boyfriend now. they'll getting engaged this Hari Raya. my ex is now struggling to finish her study. she's happy n eager to finish degree on time.

i hope u too can finish ur study on time. wellington is waiting for u. a bright future n a promising happy ending is near. patient is all u need. u'll be fine n happy ever after will come along with u n him. i know u can and i know that day u were wishing will come one day. u were right, its not that hard to move on. u choose to be happy. it was me that let ur hand go. it was me that doesnt want to stay. so u choose him instead. hurt at first but now im ok with that. everything that happened got its own reason. u, urself know what d reason is. i dont. maybe Allah wanna show that im not the one. im sorry for being ur first. i'll be bringing the sin till i die. but please halalkan everything except for that. im trully am sorry. hate me forever, i dont mind.

one more semester n i'll be gone forever. :)  doing my best to get out of here as soon as possible. u r one of the best memory i tend not delete forever. i'll keep it safe deep in mind. everything is beautiful bout u. not us but u. stay strong sayang, Allah is preparing something better for u in future. just dont loose hope to Him. im surrounded by strong women. u are one of them. despite all those pressure, tension, u managed to stay strong n live life to ur fullest. i respect u much bout that. keep it up. may Allah blessed u with what ever u are doing right now.

Selasa, 23 April 2013

heads up

great weekend
great mood

thank you dear
for the heads up

Selasa, 9 April 2013

Saint of My Life

Good night good night my little angel
Good night good night my little ones
Spread your wings and fly
Away to your dreams

When you're sleep I'm on your side
When you're awake I'll be there still
Close your eyes, put a smile on your face...
Don't be scared 'coz
I'll be there to hold you tight

You're the king, you're the queen
You're saint of my life
And when the world is trembling
Down don't you cry coz there's nothing, nothing
That will keep us apart...

Sing with me my little darling
Sing along to this lullabies
Pick the moon kiss the star so good night

Sabtu, 6 April 2013

everything that happened between us
happened for its own reason
all those provocation
the tweet
the blogpost
the chats
i know, u are the type
who cannot get mad or hate people easily
despite all ur words, cursing and stuff
deep inside, u are soft
if we still keep in touch
contacting each other
im afraid i cant do anything but just hoping
hoping that one day
you will come back to me
but that aint gonna happen
i know

lucky u, get to move on so quick

u got special someone now

he'll stay for u
provoking u to hate me
please keep on hating
u are doing it great
im the sinner
i dont deserve any forgiveness
i got 1 more semester left
all i want is to finish it as quick as possible
so that u wont be seing me around anymore
i'll vanish from u forever
just 1 more semester
u might read this or u might not
u might take this as bullshit
i dont mind whatever thought crossed on ur mind
either both, nothing is changing
between us
keep up the hating
all those hatred
bash it on my face
all the best for u Faeznur Farok

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lebih elok kita bermasam muka
lebih elok kita begini
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dari hidup dengan harapan tinggi untuk kembali
dari hidup dibayangi peristiwa lalu
dari hidup mengenangkan mu
mana letaknya diri
bukan lagi di hati
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