Progress in UTM

A month of holiday doesn't change me a lot. Still the old me though I did thought bout changing to a new me. But hell its hard for me. My habits turn out to be my lifestyle since finish school. At school time back there, there was this thinking where thought that it'd be cool where I get the chance to smoke in public instead of a hostel's toilet and get scrammed by Ali, get to puts on anything as long as it is called cloths and most of all wont have homeworks no more, got to spend money by my own without asking Umi what can or can't buy thing.

But then I realize that being a 20 years old student aren't just like I've been expecting before. as for the first wish, without Ali around actually turns me into heavy smoker. 2 year ago maybe just need 2 or 3 sticks per day but it seems that 2 3 sticks is like being add up 1 stick per day everyday until today, I actually can finish up 2 box or in exact amount of 40 stick for about 1 day. Maybe an hour or two hour less than a day would take. Man, at first,am not giving a shit bout how bad my lung could be, but then I know that it's bad when I started to breath just had 100 meter dash though I was actually climbing a 4 floor hostel apartment-lookalike, heading to my room on the fourth floor every single day for this day.

Always being a matter when it comes bout money. Why, people these day feed them self with it, not food and that's include me in the list. No money then there won't be entertainment or food or whatever it is. Who can live life without those craps? Well, maybe there is and tell you what, me to starting to be like one. To save my budget until ptptn is cash in, I cooked myself a pot of rice every night so that the expenses could be cut from RM10 to RM5 a day. As for cigarette, I kind a being a stingy person when it comes for it. Had it left at my room. Just a few inhale each time someone in class went for smokes. It works actually, I could live myself RM100 per a month, way saver than it was during school and MRSM.

For homeworks, there are none of it but still, had to study for the final, and finish up the reports for fieldwork and etc. it's feels like you kind a doing homework actually just that in here we called it assignment. So much for not having any homeworks in university I guess.

As for friends, these guys are cool enough I think to be hangout with. Sempoi and gila-gila is the character that suits all of them yet I still can't put too much trust, hope in them except trying to be kind and patient enough with them in order to get long with them within 4 year onwards. I do miss my colleague during MRSM but seems like what past is past, future is coming and it's sure lot tougher than it is today.

Adapting with the new atmosphere in here actually doesn't loose my patient at all but I'm actually learning without realizing the process that I;m going thru with . So, let's give it a shot. There's no option left anyway though sometimes I myself had this thinking of going for a try to MIAT again. Umi too did ask bout this since I've started in UTM. Got no clue why'd she ask bout it out of sudden. Well, maybe being a surveyor is not what I am suppose to but neither do being an aircraft engineer nor an English teacher that get his TESL oversea and ending up by thanking his uncle for the rest of life. Maybe what I meant to be is just to be a better person that lead his life day by day in a better way. I'm just some guy that enjoys himself getting up by his own from failure and a little help from up there. O Allah, do help me in this journey. Am not getting to the top with no help from you. Something that everyone know.