HAPPY SAD RELIEVE TENSION

HAPPY

-got offer to UTM in Skudai

SAD

-had to leave home again and got no time for blog.

RELIEVE

-everything is working like it suppose to.


TENSION

-still can't enter the PTPTN website for application...hmm...need to fill it a.s.a.p.

I'll update this blog shortly after everything is settle. TQ and keep on viewing my blog..

Fryday...11 July

Went out with Zaty and Min Che to KBMall...they wanted to buy something for me and guest what, I get to choose what I want...oh,bahagianya kalau hari-hari dapat rezeki macam ni...they just got their PTPTN..no wonder both are generous to buy something...went into Speedy store..they pay for the CDs...thanx girl!!! Really appreciate it...

So,to show how thankful I am, I send the four of them back to UiTM Machang..got there in half an hour to get there..perghh!! never thought that a place like Machang got something called a University...then went back home, take me only half of the half an hour to got there. My lonely driving was accompany by the music. Malaysian musician these days are getting better and better especially for the indie (root's n boot's O@G the times the official bittersweet the a.c.a.b harmacy couple red dragon the pilgrims project a.k.a hujan MUH roti romancesa etc)...

It was 1800, still early to go home, so stop at Tony's place and hangout with the pilots. I couldn't believe my eyes when I see Tony smoke but still I didn't say anything bout it coz for me, it is something normal for these days to see people smoke, not only for guys but for the ladies too..I wonder what Dinie would do if she know bout this. Hmm... talked bout the boys and few things bout gigs and other stuff.. It was a relieve actually coz I got to talk to someone besides Umi and the lil devils at home and its better than sitting home with nothing to do.

Suddenly, he offered me something that I can't hardly refuse. He offers to help me to get the MARA loan to fund my study in pilot. If I want to do so. Feels like my mouth was gonna threw out the word YES right that time but the word NO suddenly cuts my line when Tony said that I need to pay for first for 1st sem. It was RM15k....gosh!! how the hell am I suppose to get that fcuking money??!!!!...very-very the banyak wooo!!!..aiyoh!!!!.. plus me got not enough saving and if I do, I might think not twice but plenty times before make the decision plus Umi wont let me to be pilot...hu3 There goes the sound of a breaking heart again but still wanna thanx Tony for the offer. Hope he can help me with the loan in future insyaallah..

BODOH!!!

pernah tak korang rase yg diri korg tuh bodoh yang teramat sangat...bkn stakat bodoh dri segi bljr tapi dari tindakan yg korg amek??? ak sekarang dlm situasi tuh dan ak rase diri ini bodoh sangat sebab dah kantoi...orang melayu cakap...sudah terang lagi bersuluh...dah la kantoi siap kena suluh lagi tuh...isk3... :'( mangkok betol laa....!!!!!

BO - O - RING

Duhh!!!...really can't get use to this kind of situation....none of them called friend left in Kelantan...wish that I'm in Ipoh now...at least there I got few friends rather than in Kelantan...the only friend that left here is Tony...aiyoh!!! but still can't leparking with him everyday coz he got class till late eve..and he can't jz suke2 hati go out like the flight school tuh bapak die punyer...wanna find job but afraid that if i work, i might miss something bout the rayuan...sabar je laa....skang ni dok umah, tolong mane2 yg patot je laa...(ader ke ak tolong pape???)...BOSAN!!!!...betol2 xleh blah cmni...think Bopy think...must be something that you can do bout it. Hmm....

Mira yang suruh

Tagged by atiqah binti mohammad khuzaini, ainil nazmin, amirah saryati

Try to answer sejujurnye..hehe..

7 FACTS about me



1) aiman means yang paling kanan/berpengaruh.

2) member2 mrsm since form 1 recognize me as flop@bopi@bopy@aiman

3) aku addicted dengan basketball and music from local band.

4) anak pertama@sulong dari 5 beradik, 4 boys and 1 girl(the 1 that born in the same year with year me)

5) kuat makan tapi body maintain slim :P

6) nothing that can be proud of myself except. Biasa-biasa sahaja.....

7) try to be setabah mungkin dalam life



7 things that FRIGHTEN me (INI DI COPY TERUS DARI BLOG MIRAH)



1) Allah - takut akan dosa2ku yang nyata atau tersembunyi, yang sengaja atau tidak. ='(

2) azab kubur+kiamat+neraka. [ampuni aku~~]

3) Takut AlLlah turunkan bala kepada kita semua secara tiba2, kerana lihatlah peradaban masyarakat remaja kita hari ini. MasyaAllah. ='(

4) kecewakan ibu ayah and buat dorang sedih. [insyaAllah tak kan.]

5) perogol+peragut+pembunuh. [nowadays nyawa manusia lebih murah daripada nyawa seekor semut!]

6) tragic accident while driving [kadang2 salah orang lain pun boleh cause us to involve with accident, walaupun kita telah berhati2 dan berhemah.]

7) kehilangan ahli keluarga yang terdekat dan tersayang. [kerana aku sedar semuanya hanya pinjaman dari-NYA].



7 SONGS for the mean time

1) burn berlin down - bittersweet

2) malam - plague of happiness

3) bosan - roti

4) with you - chris brown

5) just be yourself - creed

6) humanity - scorpion

7) wicked queen - dragon red



7 PHRASES always said



1) mehhhhhh!!!!!

2) alaaa....

3) hmm...

4) .....tak marah......

5) OK

6) insyaallah

7) jom


7 VALUABLE things for me

1) samuel n kevin cap....1st gift ever had given by a good friend.

2) kawan-kawan yang BEST!!!!

3) family and closest relatives.

4) my basketball shoes with a memory for each of it (baru ada 3 pasang)

5) blog saya ni laa...hi3

6) handphone

7) nikmat iman dan islam. (aku bukan budak ALIM)



7 FIRST TIMES in my life

1) Masuk asrama - MRSM Lenggong. Member2 masa tuh semuanya pergi asrama,terikot-ikot la neh.

2) Accident - kereta upside down, dalam tuh ada lagi 4 orang mangsa. Syukur tak pape. On the way balik Kelantan. Baru lepas keluar dari MRSM Lenggong.

3) Menangis - ini kira time dah dewasa la ni. Ermm,masa abah meninggal.

4) Dapat kasut basket - masa form 3. Itu pun beli dengan Syifaq.

5) Ada awek - form 4 tapi kembali single untuk kali ke-3 dengan orang yang sama. Sayang gila kat dia....

6) Gagal@kantoi - SPM 6A 3B 1C pastuh sekarang gagal utk kali ke-2, tak dapat offer U. Sabor je la yop...

7) Kerja - jadi waiter kat banquet di Hotel Renaissance.


7 persons to be TAGGED [buat if korang baca this thing.]

1) Alia

2) Mirah

3) Beby pao

4) Ilya JN

5) Qis

6) Nisa (tak tagged tapi aku ingat ko nyer blog address) :P

7) tengah mencari.....

TIRED

Just got back from Perak,went to send McNa back to UiTM lor...arrived at Sri Iskandar on Thirstday and today, Fryday already got home. Kejap jer dok sane...lame2 pon watpe...perabeh beras jer..agpon, McNa pon ada kerja tak setel lg and umi ada kelas Sabtuday petang. I drive all the way back to Kelantan. Its an auto car but still letih gilo plus my knee is killing me!!!...cant tell Umi bout it, coz if not, she would take over laa...cannot2!!...bukan ape, aku nak tau jalan2 kat Perak ni....next time ader pape senang....

Dah masuk highway Ipoh, the brilliant me suggest to Umi to stop by at the workshop, what was it name....ahha, Kok Ken Sdn. Bhd...hua3....its not the MyVi that need to be overhaul but just stop by to visit our sang Kancil. Poor Kancil, sebab me yang drive, the Kancil that got to be warded...sorry....tapi the handwork was really good laa....never thought that a Malaysian mechanic can be this good coz the Kancil was like brand new. Ini yang aku tak sabar nak bawak ni....tapi rasanya wont have a chance even to bring it back to Kelantan. Mesti Umi tak kasi nyer.... I gerenti lah...but nevermind laa, syukur da siap repair. Now, just have to wait a greenlight from Puspakom to bring it back home. 1 cobaan dah setel. Tinggal 2 cobaan je lagi tak tahu keputusan. Patient2...u deserve it OK....nakal sangat...hu3...

We stop for a laksa and pao at 'R n R' Sg.Perak....duhhh,out of sudden feels like wanna smoke tang-tang tu jgk....mati aku neh....did bring any to Perak,left it in my room. Aduhai bopy... tahan je la...2 hour later, we stop lagi kat Puncak Titiwangsa for Zuhur n Asar prayer, but thats for Umi laa...me, rush to solat (tak khusyuk la sembahyang, teringat kat rokok) and when I'm done, went to the kedai......need to feed my lung with the Satan n Jin food....not just my perut that need to be isi OK....buy 1 stick cigarette, a lighter and a candy to cover the smells...perghhhh, the satisfying Dunhill asap got into my lung, really2 puas laa....

Then start back the journey home... this time semangat la sikit coz dapat asap...driving back home was like racong with friend in street....the cars, all really2 fast...but still, me cannot afford to lose laa....Umi dok bising2 aku bawak laju, but still, dia gak yang naik syeikh bila ada keter yang potong....oh ibuku, anak mu ini patuh dengan kehendak mu nak suruh potong diorang balik, tapi pape jadi don't blame me..I try to be a pemandu berhemat this time but still cannot laa....with the cars vroom vraam vroom vraam potong me..... Around 2000 arrived home, and YES, this is a puas hati car driving ever....harap-harap pasni got the chance lagi...hu3 Umi didn't have the chance to hold the key pon after we checkout from the house at Perak. Sampai-sampai jer, mandi, solat Maghrib then terus naik atas wat blog neh....hu3

Teratak buruk

Its a shelter not just for my family nor me but its a shelter for all...not too BIG nor too SMALL but still it is the best ever. Wanna have such house in future...the feelings, hmmm.....what we call that..............NYAMAN...the clean air, with an "OK laa" sunset makes me realize and syukur to have such a house. It is a house that doesn't make a sound but keep the sound..the sound of a family quarrel, laughter, cries...AND it has a port for me to smoke freely while having such a beatifool scenery. Just love it. The morning air, the evening breeze just perfect. Huuu...!!! feels relieve...feels free from those problem. There I got there pokok-pokok bunga, the bumbung with nice view, the neighbour and the padang....sangat lega mata memandang...Alhamdullillah......... :D

THE HOUSE








THE BUMBUNG




THE OK LAA SUNSET

Humanity

Humanity

Auf wiedersehen
It's time to say goodbye
The party's over
As the laughter dies
An angel cries

Humanity

It's au revoir to your insanity
You sold your soul to feed your vanity
Your fantasies and lies
You're a drop in the rain
Just a number not a name
And you don't see it
You don't believe it
At the end of the day
You're a needle in the hay
You signed and sealed it
And now you gotta deal with it

Humanity

Humanity

Goodbye

Goodbye

Be on your way
Adios amigo there's a price to pay
For all the egotistic games you played
The world you made
Is gone
You're a drop in the rain
Just a number not a name
And you don't see it
You don't believe it
At the end of the day
You're a needle in the hay
You signed and sealed it
And now you gotta deal with it

Humanity

Humanity

Goodbye

Goodbye

Run and hide there's fire in the sky
Stay inside
The water's gonna rise and pull you under
In your eyes I'm staring at the end of time
Nothing can change us
No one can save us from ourselves
You're a drop in the rain
Just a number not a name
And you don't see it
You don't believe it
At the end of the day
You're a needle in the hay
You signed and sealed it
Now you gotta deal with it

Humanity

Cobaan and hikmah

Cobaan - Accident then Kancil masuk workshop.
Hikmah - Jarang keluar lepak siang malam and aku baru tahu apa makna DRIVE SLOWLY AND CAREFULLY.

Cobaan - Problem yg macam syial kat Ipoh. 3 hari tapi macam-macam jadi... :(
Hikmah - Jumpa kawan yang ada masa menangis and still sampai kat maktab dalam keadaan
sihat,pastuh jumpa kekawan and shekgu and junior and gewdix3 kat maktab.
Sekejap tapi bermakna... :D

Cobaan - Tak dapat masuk U.
Hikmah - Sedar yang lifestyle, attitude masa study kena ubah and a few things that help in
future. Besides, baru aku tahu langit tu tinggi ke rendah. Benefit ke IPTS tak nampak
sekarang except for the fee yang cam haram mahal tapi still, kita tak nampak
sekarang tapi ada yang menanti...hu3

Papepon yang jadi, aku tetap teguh and still can survive...too many challenge wont bring me down but make me even stronger... no matter what come, I won't die because of it unless Allah want me to. So, apa lagi Bopi get back to work and start again with a new vision and carry those hope with you along again. Its not just about how many times you start it again but how you get it start. Should let those hope down. Kalau fikir boleh pastuh iringkan dengan doa, insyaallah dapat. Just don't give up.

Making a decision...

Hmm...MSI,MIAT,UiTM...which 1 is better haa? can decide which 1 to go..MSI and MIAT tuh IPTS..going there need money and don't have any laa...what to do eh? hmm...need to decide which to go in 3 hour...haishhh!!!...susah-susah..i was hoping to enter MIAT in Aircraft Maintenance BUT July intake for MIAT is already full,if I really wanted to go there,then need to wait for January intake next year laa..lame tuh!!..as for MSI, for the Automotive Engineering, the registration is on 6 July and had to go to Kedah...and the thing is,i was suppose to go there tonight IF i want to enter the MSI laa...but instead of going to Kedah, i decided to stay..ye la,kat MIAT,dapat belajar benda yang aku memang nak since SPM dulu tapi intake nyer lambat lagi...so,itu leh jadi backup plan untuk aku if tak dapat rayuan...for MSI, get to learn pasal kereta and other vehicle..also my interest tapi tarikh pendaftaran tuh 6 July, cepat sangat laa..aku takleh nak pikir masak-masak since tarikh tutup utk apply 26 Jun neh...besides,kalau dah register sane,aku takleh tiba-tiba nk transfer msk MIAT though diorang ni same2 under uniKL..same like UiTM...let say if Uncle Nor already arrange the course that I ask for,pon rugi jgk if ak pergi utk uniKL yg MSI tuh....since benda ni swasta,so better for me to wait my appeal...if I didn't get it, then had to stay at home for another few month, baru apply balik the IPTS...dalam kata lain, tahun depan laa..hmm...it hard to decide, but still had to make a wise 1...if not, I'll ruin my life again. Tapi, betul ker keputusan aku ni ek? Hmm...no matter what it is, hope that Umi will never stop herself from supporting me. Really need someone to support and help me. A friend maybe..O Allah,please help me...huhuhu...

De futsal

Letih sial main futsal..ak da xde stamina da..mane taknyer...sebelum start main ada dekat 5 batang dah ak isap..hmm...bila la bleh stop smoking neh..da makin heavy neh..parah2x!!..ni kalau dapat 2nd intake utk U,pastuh g wat medical checkup,konfem doc ckp ak ader lung problem..ramai gk yg datang main arini..Pok Lan,Kumin,Cherah,Dinpang,Dodol,Pok Mie,Afif...kitorg main dgn dak2 PC..ley tahan fight..hmm,beznyer dak2 ni dpt smbg U..Cherah,Kumin,Dinpang,Bal,Boey dpt UM..Dodol lak UMP..hu3...segan sial nk lepak dgn dorg pasni,tp nk wt cne face it laa..its your fault. Dah abes main,rest jap pastuh sembang2..dorg ngah BZ dgn medical checkup,beli pin PTPTN,bukak akaun bank macam2 laa..

Hmm..buntu jgk biler pikir nk smbg studi ktner...nando da stat,esk die gerak g KL,ader open interview kt sane utk uniKL...wish that I could join him..hmm..tp xde geng laa..xpe2,nnt ak pikir blk mlm neh...need to decide quick..hu3..mcm yg nando ckp,ini da ader chance,kna grab cpt2...kang xpsl2 mlepas..tp ak xmo msk utk program laen..ak nk MIAT..hmm,nape laa ak xmsk je pas SPM dlu..kan bgs..diploma pon diploma laa..

Tapi itu ler,boleh mengeluh je laa...bnda da lepas...xde guna nk kenang nyer...lagi pedih...ak kna bljr cara2 cane nk let it go laa...klu x,ssh ak...hu3

nasib nasib... :'(

Hmm...pe la malang nasib aku...life makin lame makin sucks...cannot go la like diz...need to figure something. Hope won't get worst. Damn,miss those life in MRSM...wish that I could turn back time and fix it again. If I do get that chance, I promise wont play-play no more laa...huuu...

Dah la Bopy, nak frust lebih-lebih pun takde guna...ko da abes skola da pon. What done is done, pe ko ingat kalau ko putar balik masa tuh, ko bley make things right laa? C'mon...get real man...chill out...it's not like you gonna die esok......

Yea yea I know...but who knows right, ajal maut tu kat tangan Allah. Ko sape yang nak tentukan semua tuh...put urself in my shoes, result matrix ko da kantoi,skang upu pon camtuh.. pe yang ko nak buat haa??

Ye saya tau...tapi......... you need to be strong laa bro...ko kan jantan, sportsman lak tuh...mana ley gelar diri sendiri sportsman kalau takde semangat nak melawan. Lagipun, losing this war doesn't mean that you gonna lost the next one. When the time comes, make sure you grabhold it. Don't lose it and don't you dare thinking of giving up. Hidup ni panjang lagi...imagine, kalau dah sekarang ko give up, future ahead, memang habis la ko... ini baru sikit dugaan Allah kasi. Ko patut bersyukur sebab Allah kecundangkan ko sekarang...dia da bagi petunjuk and pengajaran kat ko so next time ko takkan buat same mistake. Pastuh ko kena ingat laa, ubah diri tuh...maybe dari segi attitude ko dengan orang takde masalah dah tapi dari segi cara study ko, lifestyle ko...dulu boleh la pakai motto "STUDY LEPAK RESULT GEMPAK"...tapi ko ni da terlebih dah TERLEBIH LEPAK SAMPAI RESULT HAPRAK...hahaha....jangan marah tapi aku cakap benda yang betul. Renung-renungkanlah...apa yang umi, ms. chew, and kekawan cakap tuh semuanya betul. They've play their role, now it's up to you to make the move...the quicker you start, the better it is...jangan hesitate, coz ko jugak yang rugi nanti...OK?

Hmm...aku tension laa...kawan-kawan semuanya dapat masuk U bez-bez...aku jugak sorang-sorang yang tersadai..rasa cam aku sorang-sorang je sekarang..supporter takde. Ko lak asyik nak drop aku jer...aduh laa!! kat sapa lagi aku nak merujuk neh?

Lek Pi, ko still ada aku, Aiman...Aiman kenal sangat dengan Bopi...ko suke merendah diri, takde self confidence, asyik fikir negative, suke buat keputusan terburu-buru, suke ikut perasaan kalau buat keputusan, tak penah nak pikir baik buruk keputusan yang ko buat...ishhh!!! macam-macam laa...tapi takpe Pi..ko ubah semua tuh...Aiman leh tolong ko jadi macam Aiman..positive, happy go lucky, just chill out la bro...ko bolehnye lar..aku konfiden dengan ko...jangan tension-tension sangat dengan benda kecil camneh..

Hmm...ada betul jugak ko cakap tuh.. buka buku baru..be more energetic, semangat, sikit and most of, ubah diri, ubah sikap..my friends and family can just show you the way, then it's up to me,myself laa kan?!..huhuhu...thanx alot for this..you really being helpful..thank God that Bopi still got Aiman. Someone that I really can trust..thanx again.

SAHABAT

SAHABAT

Ya Allah

Sahabatku buah hatiku
Mesra kami penawar duka
Rindu kami menambah cinta
Rajuk kami membuah ceria

Ya Allah

Silaturahim kami ukhuwah fillah
Bermusuh kami na'uzubillah
Berpisah mati
InsyaAllah Pengubat Hati Doa Rabitah.

Ya Allah

Rahmati kami meniti usia
Terpisah kami di alam nyata
Temukan semula di taman syurga
Maaf andai setakat ini diri ini
Bukan seperti sahabat yang didambakan
Kerana diri ini masih belajar
Untuk menjadi seorang sahabat

~PERHATIAN~

sesape yang nak pix time reuni0n ley amek ngan ak...korg grab la kat frenster or myspace yaa...-bOpi-

A Pictures That Worth A Thousand Words

ABAH..HAPPY FATHER'S DAY...WE LOVE YOU

Sindarela

Husin a.k.a Mr. Denial Syndrome

The cutey Zoela

Adoi!!...cter neh best gler sial!!...he3..tak sabar-sabar nk taw ending citer neh...pada mereka-mereka out there,you shuld watch this. It's a great story which is totally different to others malay love story yang melampau-lampau jiwang nyer..ini sedang-sedang saja..hu3

The classic Cinderella story of a young girl left in the hands of cruel relatives after the demise of her parents. It’s a tale of journeying life’s bitter moment with a smile, keeping the faith and always believing that a better tomorrow will eventually come around.

PENYESALAN......

Adehh!!! Today woke up at 1230...last night went to bed at 0430...I was awake by the message and reminder...It was Kekla,asking whether I've book or not the room for us during the reunion night. I said I didn't but I'll book it in a few days if the SRC doesn't have any progress with our stay. Thinking of went back to sleep but when I read the reminder, I rush for bath and went out to the bank...need to pay the processing fee for the UniKL application. I am hoping that I could go for my study in Aircraft Maintenance there.. I did apply after SPM and was called for interview but I turned out not going there. Why? Coz my PST relatives said "Why must you go for something that others don't want? Better go for matriculation la Man...thats the best for you...you just had to spend only 1 year then you can go for degree." Thats what they said laa...so I follow them coz at that time,they are like PST for a naive guy like me. Got no father no more,so maybe they wanted to help and guide me...thanks to their sympathy and me for being soooo naive,now I've no where to go...with piece of shit, I might be throw away to Sabah Sarawak...isk3..don't want don't want...hu3

Just nak membebel.....

Last month I went to Kajang,wasting time there with my cousin. For a week I've done nothing to cheer me up except helping my cousin with his work. Mixed up with the elder is great. They got plenty of story regarding their life and I usually take it as a something to be put in my do and don't list. Went out with Sam, Nisa and Mimi...(before we got in a big fight lor)...we played pool while waiting for Sam. I'm still hungry actually though we just had lunch at Domino's. Mimi is quite good in the pool game. She had played it before but as for Nisa.....Hahaha........sorry. Hmm...then we went for bowling. The ball is glowing but not the ball that catch my attention but Nisa. She's drop 100 something. Maybe she wanted a revenge coz we beat her in pool..huhuhu...

I called Kojek but eh said that he'll come a.s.a.p but still when we're done at starbucks,he still didn't show. Thought that he would never show up but he did. Thank good. He just saved me RM3. He send me home with his Legend. We merempit on the highway and it actually hurt my butt. While we merempit on the road,passing the trafficlight and even got lost, I dont mind at all coz I was fascinated by the view of KLCC. Hope that I got the chances to further my study in Shah Alam.

I'm totally bored with Perak and places to hangout at there. Nothing interesting. I've been studying there for 6 years and definitely not going for 7. But I bet I'll miss a few spot like Padang Polo,Rum's Jungle,7 Club and JJ of course..huhuhu... KMPk and MJSC Lenggong maybe....people there helps me a lot to survive especially when you had no one to count on. The lecturer actually that being helpful. As for friend,there are few of them like the Teknik Brash students. Man they are totally crazy. Being friend with them teach me how to enjoy life tho you got no money. Hahaha....miss them damn much. Chot,Am,Acap,Qordi,Poter.

Surat B utk BB

To my x-baby.....

First of all,b nak say sorry for hurting your feeling over and over and over again...b tak maksud nak buat macam tu...tapi bb..........kadang-kadang b sendiri pun tak tahu apa yang b buat sampai bb cakap b berlagak, poyo and etc. B confuse...and because of that,i can't stop blaming myself for what had happened between us now...

Bila bb nk b berubah,b try berubah and i did change in few things...can't you see? I'm not the old Aiman anymore...i'd turned myself to Bopi....trying and dying to be like what you want me to be... Tapi itulah,b ni manusia normal...tak semua benda b boleh ubah untuk nak puaskan bb semata-mata...kalau pasal b suka marah-marah,b try control,tapi bb still tak faham-faham juga....bila kita gaduh,ada tak b tengking-tengking bb? Ada b cakap-cakap kasar dengan bb? Ok,I admit that ada sekali tu kita gaduh and b tanya bb lesbo ke tak...memang bodoh b cakap camtu..sumpah bodoh..b patutnya percayakan bb, tapi maybe sebab time tu b rasa marah sangat kat bb sampaikan b tanya b camtuh.


Bila kita gaduh,mostly b mengalah..yup!! memang patut b mengalah...tapi apa yang b tak suka bila bb suka marah-marah b or saje suka-suka nak naikkan darah b....Contohnya,bila b cakap yang b tak marah,tapi still bb ckp yang b sebenarnya marah...bb still tak faham dengan b lagi ke?? I'm just a typical guy with a simple but phatetic lifestyle....and macam bb cakap la, b ni orangnya lurus bendul...so,apa yang b cakap,itu semua apa yang b rasa...takde nyer b nak selindung kalau b marah dengan bb.

Bila b cakap yang b tak marah,b tak marah la...maybe marah,tapi sekejap je,lepas tu OK la balik....sama la macam bb...ingat tak masa keluar main bowling kat midvalley,b headlock kepala bb....time tu,b ingat nak bergurau macam apa yang b selalu buat kat member-member,tapi b lupa.......bb bukan lelaki. Masa tu b ingat kan yang bb nak blah je,xmo lepak dah....tapi,bb sendiri cakap kat b lepas tu...bb cakap yang kalau bb tengah marah,just biar je bb macam tu coz nanti bb akan OK balik...b pun macam tu gak....

Dalam sehari dua lepas tu,b ada contact bb....malam tu sebenarnya malam last b nak dengar suara bb coz b actually nekad nak disconnect dengan bb ngan cara baik...tapi plan tak jadi. Malam tu b tak tahu la bb marah or nasihat,tapi b tak kisah...b anggap apa yang bb cakap malam tu semau nasihat,tapi kalau bb marah pun,apa b kisah...you were just trying to help...memang betul,bb dah banyak tolong b....luar dan dalam..pengalaman b dengan bb memang b takkan lupakan sampai bila-bila...tho bb dah benci dekat b...

Bb......

B nak minta maaf kalau apa yang b dah buat ni menyakitkan hati bb...tapi ini je satu-satunya cara yang b rasa yang terbaik untuk buat bb lupakan b......and it works....I've deleted you from my friendlist in myspace,friendster,yahoo messenger,facebook and even in my phone but still,I check your myspace to see the progress...you've deleted our photo during the penang trip with nando....and even my name is no longer exist in your page...sangat-sangat sedih tapi itu keputusan b and b rasa,itu yang terbaik untuk kita berdua.


B tak sanggup dah nak buat bb sakit hati and b tak sanggup dah nak dengar bb marah-marah b for things that I didn't do....kalau ikutkan,boleh jer b marah balik,tapi b tak sanggup...b seorang yang cepat marah tapi b boleh control coz bb yang suruh and I did as you said so. B bersabar dengan apa yang bb cakap,buat tapi sabar b ada limit juga....sekali b da menyampah,selamanya b takkan pandang dah muka orang tuh....and tahniah,bb sebenarnya daa buat b menyampah...b menyampah dengan sikap bb yang macam tu...

Kenapa b boleh berusaha untuk berubah sedangkan bb tak pernah pun nak berubah....I'm not asking you to change your image but your attitude towards me...it's like I've lost my respect from you. C'mon la,b seorang lelaki and you do know bout our ego right..cukup la dengan peluang-peluang yang b bagi,tapi b dah serik. Maybe bb rasa yang bb deserve another chance like you give me before,tapi situasi kita berbeza...and I am really thankful to you for giving me that chance...a chance to know you better than at school..thank you so much

Sekarang,b tengah tabahkan hati dengan future b...i've lost abah,i've lost you and i am definitely not going to lost my life...b lonely sangat-sangat...can't share my probs with umi...she doesn't know me...can't blame her for this coz I've been in boarding school for 5 years and I only spend a maximum of 2 month for my family. Masa kiat couple dulu pun,seboleh-bolehnya b tak nak bb tau b ada prob...memang loving is about sharing,but that won't work for me. B tak nak bb tiba-tiba rasa susah hati pasal problem b and b tau,memang bb tak pernah rasa macam tu. Kan? It's just a wild guest. Hmm.....harap-harap bb dapat boyfriend baru yang lagi sporting,lagi baik,lagi caring dari b. Apa-apa pun yang jadi antara kita,b tetap sayang bb..

Hari tu b ada SMS dengan Nisa...ala,malam yang kita gaduh tu...b tau bb bengang dengan b kan coz Kaldey invite b dalam konferens yg bb buat...terus bb out masa tu..takpe la,b yang salah. Hmm...masa b SMS dengan Nisa,b cakap kat dia yang b menyesal coz selama ni b kapel dengan bb....tapi bila b fikir-fikirkan balik,kenapa mesti b menyesal. Selama kita kapel,b da buat macam-macam untuk happykan bb and b rasa b berjaya gak cheerkan bb. B suka dengar bb gelak. Ingat tak masa b hiccups dulu? Masa tu lak b call bb....bb gelak dengar b tersedu...heheheh...seronoknya masa tu..sangat susah nak dengar bb gelak. Memang bb ada gelak gak waktu-waktu lain,tapi b paling suka bb gelak masa tu...b harap ada gak la sikit-sikit happy moment selama kita kapel dulu ya...kalau takde tuh,b sorry sangat tapi b dah try yang terbaik untuk jaga bb. Setakat ini je yang b mampu. B harap bb dapat cari orang lain yang lagi bagus dari b dari semua benda. B tau bb boleh dapatkan someone yang betul-betul caring coz kamu dalam tak sedar attract ramai orang untuk kenal dengan kamu.

I'll miss pinching your cute face. There's plenty to say but I can't hardly think about it now. Take care. I'll miss you for the rest of my life. Love you so much Mimi...



From,

BOPi

UMi

Woke up 530am in the morning...
make us breakfast and not just a breakfast like toast bread with jam....its a breakfast. Get it???
Then,she'll drive to the school....................alone....
Even when Abah is around,she went by her own...thinking back on how they met, makes me laugh. Based on their story, I started to believe that
not all true love exist before marriage as in other word tanpa CINTA
they still can live together. for more than 15 years.
How did they do that?
Yet,she still couldn't forget him. Maybe because of the period of time.

She's 44 this year...she's teaching at Kelantan,Zainab 2
and its a cluster school FYI.
I don't know how she does it
but she's being teaching there for about 10 years....
Sometimes she makes me wonder...how could she stand it?
For 10 years she works at the same place,sitting on the same chair,
entering the same class every single day for the past 10 years???
Maybe the different is when the school
change its head with master or mistress or she got a new colleague and the students.
However,she could manage to adapt with the changing atmosphere there.
I salute her for that.
I mean,working in a same place for a decade
but facing different kind of thought from her boss
Doesn't that make her feel bored if the isn't like who she had before them
....but still,she can stand it.
As a teacher,maybe for them who work in other field think that
working as teacher is quit easy
but so far from my view,
she got lot more responsibility compared to other job.
Can you imagine that she is teaching a basic mathematic to
somebody's daughter and
that somebody is hoping that his or her daughter
could get an A in that subject.
Maybe for some people,they said that
teaching is easy but for me, from what I've seen everyday
since I know how to judge
its not about teaching
But having the responsibility of making the students to understand
what you are teaching them. It take a lot more than patient I guess.

Woke up 530am in the morning...
make us breakfast and not just a breakfast like toast bread with jam....
Then,she'll drive to the school....................alone....
Even when Abah is around,she went by her own...







she's definitely prettier than you...
No offense but thats the fact...face it OK?
Maybe its cheap but I got her a blouse...
Thanks to Nisa and Mimi...
Of course not for helping me with what to buy
but with the size...hahaha
Drinks on me 1 day OK ladies...thanks alot


~under construction!!!~

result

Damn!!! thought is till got time to enjoy myself with friends but ,damn......it's already May 19th.... i'll be getting my result on 20 something...huuu!!!!!...its like counting your death day man!!

my feeling tells me that it's worst than the 1st sem....don't know what to do....just hoping that i still got the chance to enter the university...(hope so)....if not,gotta think something else and better be quick....got no time left for you now...u need to think bout your family now...they are your priority man...think about it.......think again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again...................make sure that you die thinking of it...OK??
don't forget to pray....His blessing is all that we need.......................4jjI........Amin.....

i'm confused

Thinking of getting married with dat gurl haaa my man??!!! who's gonna marry such loser?? u think dat she's going to be wit u all da tym haa?? trust me man....she will dumb u 1 day.....ain't no girl gonna live wit u...u think u can feed her with a smile...dumbhead...!!!!!!!

stop dreaming k...better u think bout ur future...much more important compared to others...no need to find love right now coz u'll find 1 in future...maybe much more better than u had 1 now...maybe she is sweet nice cuddly n kind but u goota think bout sumthin man.....she is sum1 dat will easily fall in love with other and won't stay in love with any longer.....u had evrything dat she hate...hot tempered,not cool,ur pennyless...n u r nobody...u r nobody man...nobody...................

Besides....read her results bout herself at her page....

"In love, you are an easy person to fall for. But not an easy person to stay in love with.
Although you are quite flexible, you often come off as aloof or argumentative."

Nahhh.....dats the prove...u both are'nt meant to be together...enough of it man...maybe she won't be yours but still.....if ur not shame of urself...be her friend...but i think dat won't be nice...jz forget bout it...there's too many memories...make a choice...u got 2 option....erase all memories between u n her or u can jz pretend dat nothing happened few days ago...get back to her...said ur sorry...how bout it??

Kehidupan

Hidup2....jgn ler byk sgt merungut... syukur ler dpt bernafas ats muka bumi neh...sikit punya cantik allah bagi...free plak tuh...tapi itu la kter manusia...xpenah rase puas ngn nikmat yg da dprovidekn....ader sajer bnda yg nk dirungutkn,ader jer bunyi2 mengeluh....pebnda sbnrnyer yg kter nk keluhkn??? makan minom pakaian sumer ckp jer parent bg....even yg da dpt 4 5 ratos per month dri parent pon stil ley ckp xckp...mmg r zmn skg sumer bnda da naek hrga jd mahal2... tp klu btol la mahal,npe ader je org yg idop??? org yg papa kedana dok umah papan skli pon,still bley idop...cz klu nk idop,money isnt evrythin laa brotha n sistah...most important iz dat we know how to live life.....da taw kter xde dwit,yg gatal2 nk g gk shoppin tu nper?? mmg r window shoppin jer,tp xke korg rs cm tndkan tu sengal? bler da 1st tym pegi,mst r geram cz xdpt bli.....2nd tym pegi ngn ader dwit,muler la nk licinkn dwit tuh....haiii......dwit skg ni bkn nyer sng2 jer nk cari kak oiiii..... kter ley ibaratkn dwit tuh nk msk dlm poket ni mcm air hujan...punyer la lamer 2ggu bru msk...da lamer 2ggu dwit nk msk,kluarnyer mencurah2 mcm air terjun....xhenti2....dasat2...renung2kan la kawan...bler da xde dwit,mula la nk mrungut...xslh klu mrungut,tp jgn ler sllu cz bnda tu slh diri sndirikan...pndi2 la jimat,sndri mau idop....bler sllu sgt merungut psl bnda samer,means xpenah rse nyesal ngn sikap cm2...amek la iktibar b4 jd lg trok...agpon,klu tabiat neh lekat smpi tua,xke susah...klu kawen ngn org kaya,byk dwit,harta mkn xabes smpi kiamat pon....xkesah ler...what if things happen vice versa??? no 1 knows wats waiting 4 us in future....ill pay u 1 million if theres one....hu3...if they do can,then predict when is the judgment day will be or mayb try to guest when am i going to die perhaps...hell i dont care if they do perdict it correctly or not cz as far as i know,in my religion theres no such thing as predicting bout life n death............to be continued........

Tatapan buat kaum Hawa

Allah berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi
seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang
dunia; namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan
menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika
orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan
dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh "

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap
keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya
dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami
yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji
kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa
ragu "

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan.

Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."



"Kau tahu:




Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,
susuk yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah
pintu hatinya ?tempat dimana cinta itu ada."

syahdu nyer bler bace....ak slaku slh sorg ciptaan allh.....nk cpk yg ak respek sgt2 kt sumer wanita n pompuan cz korg la yg jd tmpt kami mnumpang b4 kuar....tp syg.....zaman skg neh,even pompuan sndri pon xrespek diri sndri....

be proud of who u r ladies....syukur le...jg diri msg2 ye....jgn cayer sgt laki even yg menulis neh cz bler ader je org ke3 n korg taw2 sndri la saper.......ak jamin....pak imam pon bley tumbang....huhuhuhuhuhuhu

waaaaa!!!! ak cari psl ngn memey lg...bodO gler sial!!?!!....da taw syg tp cari psl lg...tp mn ley thn beb.....rindu gler2 bangsat sama minah tuh...ntah pe la ilmu dier pakai smpi ak dok tergila2 kt dier....4/12 ri2 dier mai m3x...ak xtau...ptg tu ak men cm bese r,tp ujan....so blk la bilik....smpi je blk, rumet ak btaw dier nmpk minah tu kt pak gad....ms 2 rlx ag....pas2,ttbe je angin smcm....lari bajet rokok ak utk ari2.... 5 bat stret ak lyn....mcm2 dok pkr dlm kapla neh...rambot lak nga pnjg,igt nk botak....haaaa!!!1 baguih sgt la,memey dtg je ak botka....bkn tande protes or majok,tp dier yg nk tgk pale ak botak.....ikot je la yop....bkn tande takot samer dier,tp saayaaaang!!! hahaha...mlm 2 call dier,tp dier dok ralit ngn mmbr dier....hmmm....sabor je la....tp agk kuciwa sial.....last2 ak nk ngado kt si dayah tp terantor kt dier la plk...bodo gler bangang lah tym tuh...hu3.....pas2 dier reply blk npe n sape dayah...klu ikotkn tym tu bley je nk tipu....tp xmo....dari ak dok pendam,bek btaw je....kan??? mlm 2 xtdo lgsg lps bwt luahan ati...bkn sbb kecewwa, tp byk keje.....pagi esk 2 ade kls ganti,pki jadual ari jumaat.... dier ajak kuar,ak ikot jer mule2....tp dier lak yg cam nk xnk spend maser ngn ak....so ak pon mengkenselkan diri nk kuar ngn dier....biar la dier bahagia ngn teman2 dier....ape yg ak bleh bwt pon....dpt jmpe skjp pon jd la mlm tu afta dorg blk oting.....haiiii!!!! idop2.....byk sgt yg nk dikeluhkan....hmmmm