just for you

i didnt get the chance to say good bye this time not like when i finish my degree. be strong stay strong. you are the best dream that ever come true to me. and now, you're back to be a dream again. a pure dream that will remain deep inside. you are what every man always wanted. i pray for your happiness with azrai or any other man that will be the one for you. i hope you can forgive all my sin to you. as for your question during our last conversation when we argue during Sher's accident, no we cant be friend again. why? because you have azrai now, i dont want the friendship to jeopardize your relationship with him. why i can be friend with my previous ex? because i dont have any feeling anymore towards her, not like what i feel about you. pray for my success as i pray for your's. take care faeznur. though we cant be friend, like normal people do, but if you need anything, anything at all, you know how to find me. i will do my best to help you.

regards, your ex.

January 1st 2014

kalau hidup bergelumang dosa

tanamlah dalam diri walau sebiji benih taubat 

siramlah dengan istiqamah hati untuk berubah

(Bopy,1 Jan 2014)

EGO

kadang aku sedar akan salah diri

tapi dek ego yang tinggi

ku butakan mata, ku pekakkan telinga

kadang aku tahu lebih baik aku berdiam diri

tapi dek ego yang tinggi

ku lantang bersuara, merumitkan lagi perkara

kadang aku tahu lebih baik aku melangkah ke depan

tapi dek ego yang tinggi

ku tetap disini menunggumu, setia menanti

kadang aku tahu ku perlu buang ego ini

tapi dek ego yang tinggi

ku terus bersikap begini

biarlah apa orang nak kata

biarlah apa orang nak fikir

biarlah apa orang nak buat

aku tetap aku

dan

aku tetap sayang kamu, pwincess

MATI

semoga mati ku kelak
mati yang tenang

semoga mati ku kelak 

ditempatkan dalam kalangan yang beriman

semoga mati ku kelak 

taubat ku diterima

semoga mati ku kelak 

dosa ku terampun

semoga mati ku kelak 

pahala ku dihimpun

semoga mati ku kelak 

tidak dikenang kerana dosa ku

semoga mati ku kelak 

tidak ditangisi yang dikasihi tapi diredhai

semoga mati ku kelak 

jadi pengajaran buat yang belum tiba ajal

semoga mati ku kelak 

syahadah jadi perkataan terakhir ku

Amin Amin Ya RabbalAlamin

210691

Happy Birthday

its your big day

210691

22 years

semoga panjang umur

berkekalan jodoh

dimurahkan rezeki

dipermudahkan pekerjaan

Amin

please

please forgive all my sin
please give me one last chance
please comeback to me
please dont go

counting the days before i really left this place for good
i'm still hoping for one last chance
to date u like we use to
movies, dinner, shopping, picnic
everything bout u are hardly vanish
i dont know why but that is the truth

tomorrow is ur birthday
i keep on reminiscing bout ur birthday party last year
how happy u were that night
smiling and laughing

how i wish that now, i had a memory lost
so that i can forget everything bout u
maybe that is just the best way to ease my mind
to forget u
just now i watch The Vow
we watch it together
do u remember?
i hope u do

i still love u
please gimme one last chance
i wont beg but i hope u can give it a try
for one last chance
that is all i'm asking

NEVER EVER

never ever

start a relationship

start your day

start your life

with a single lie

because a great lie 

create

a beautiful truth

but

it will end up

with an ugly truth

weekend of joy

i can be happy just like you

i can smile n laugh

i can move on too

yet i still remember the past

for the sake of future

4 years of waiting cant compare to 1 year of happiness n sadness

6 month of being close is nothing compare to 1 year of joy n tears

but past is past

its not present

future is ahead n that is what to be thought

i carry the loads n i shall carry it till end

that day

that day, i was waiting for u to come to d event
but it finished early
u need to be somewhere
for the game
i thought it can wait
sunday maybe
but then u text me
someone approach u
knowing that i wont get 2nd chance
i choose to say go to him
maybe he can make u happier
why must u ask me
u already made ur decision that time
right?
if i ask u to stay
u wont either
then u started to ask how am i doing
i lied
i lied that im okay
seeing u with him
pissed me off
why must u come with him
i can go meet u by myself
why baby why
ur happy that im being like this
right?
knowing that i am begging
u love the show right?
thank you love
thank you so much
my ego ruined me
its killing the inside
i dont know what shit im talking right now but
all i know is that
im still trying to move on like u did
it look easy
but its hard

it never happened

i bought you a flower

bring you to dinner

kiss your hand while driving

hug you from back while walking

hold your hand while dinner

and most important

say that i'm sorry

on the day that will never come

tell me something that i dont know please.
i could only watch u from far.
no guts to go n say hi
coz i'm afraid u would run away
happy for u that he take good care of u
must be fun, doing things together with him right
gym dinner movie

if its not bout me, then who else?
us? as far as im concern, its history. right?
u've move on
for me, ur not changing
those dress, long hair etc
its the same
the same girl that
i once fall in love before this
u smile u laugh
no more tears
no more sadness

it was my fault
i was too focusing on changing u to be someone else
until it was too late for me
to realize that
it was me that change
not to relate to the relation
between me n aya or my ex meme
we're friend
both is just friend

when i was your man

i still care bout u

i really do

let time heal the wound

how long is not the point

as long i can move on

menyu menyu

next chapter

i am the one to be blame for everything that happened between us. i didnt give u enough attention. it was me that full of flaws. i neglect everything bout u. i forgot when was the first time we met. when was the first time we spend the night out. i never focused to any ur talk. sorry bout that. its not u baby, it was me. it was me that doesnt want to cut off my relation with those girls that u were afraid of. my ex,my sister. im sorry. now they are happy with their life. aya is happy with her boyfriend now. they'll getting engaged this Hari Raya. my ex is now struggling to finish her study. she's happy n eager to finish degree on time.

i hope u too can finish ur study on time. wellington is waiting for u. a bright future n a promising happy ending is near. patient is all u need. u'll be fine n happy ever after will come along with u n him. i know u can and i know that day u were wishing will come one day. u were right, its not that hard to move on. u choose to be happy. it was me that let ur hand go. it was me that doesnt want to stay. so u choose him instead. hurt at first but now im ok with that. everything that happened got its own reason. u, urself know what d reason is. i dont. maybe Allah wanna show that im not the one. im sorry for being ur first. i'll be bringing the sin till i die. but please halalkan everything except for that. im trully am sorry. hate me forever, i dont mind.

one more semester n i'll be gone forever. :)  doing my best to get out of here as soon as possible. u r one of the best memory i tend not delete forever. i'll keep it safe deep in mind. everything is beautiful bout u. not us but u. stay strong sayang, Allah is preparing something better for u in future. just dont loose hope to Him. im surrounded by strong women. u are one of them. despite all those pressure, tension, u managed to stay strong n live life to ur fullest. i respect u much bout that. keep it up. may Allah blessed u with what ever u are doing right now.

heads up

great weekend

great mood

thank you dear

for the heads up

Saint of My Life

Good night good night my little angel
Good night good night my little ones
Spread your wings and fly
Away to your dreams

When you're sleep I'm on your side
When you're awake I'll be there still
Close your eyes, put a smile on your face...
Don't be scared 'coz
I'll be there to hold you tight

You're the king, you're the queen
You're saint of my life
And when the world is trembling
Down don't you cry coz there's nothing, nothing
That will keep us apart...

Sing with me my little darling
Sing along to this lullabies
Pick the moon kiss the star so good night

everything that happened between us
happened for its own reason
all those provocation
the tweet
the blogpost
the chats
everything
i know, u are the type
who cannot get mad or hate people easily
despite all ur words, cursing and stuff
deep inside, u are soft
if we still keep in touch
contacting each other
im afraid i cant do anything but just hoping
hoping that one day
you will come back to me
but that aint gonna happen
i know

lucky u, get to move on so quick

u got special someone now

he'll stay for u
provoking u to hate me
please keep on hating
u are doing it great
im the sinner
i dont deserve any forgiveness
i got 1 more semester left
all i want is to finish it as quick as possible
so that u wont be seing me around anymore
i'll vanish from u forever
just 1 more semester
u might read this or u might not
u might take this as bullshit
i dont mind whatever thought crossed on ur mind
because
either both, nothing is changing
between us
keep up the hating
all those hatred
bash it on my face
all the best for u Faeznur Farok

lebih elok aku dibenci dari disayangi

lebih elok kita bermasam muka

lebih elok kita begini

biar hidup dihantui kekesalan

biar hidup dibebani dosa

biar hidup diselubungi kecewa

dari hidup dengan harapan tinggi untuk kembali

dari hidup dibayangi peristiwa lalu

dari hidup mengenangkan mu

mana letaknya diri

bukan lagi di hati

terima kasih kerana membenci

sekarang baru ku rela kau pergi

ampunkan aku

bukan aku orang yang kau cari

ku iring doa semoga kau kekal bahagia

Amin

i dont hate you

i hate your boyfriend

i wish

i wish
i change
i wish
i realize

before it was too late

i wish
u are happy
i wish
u get what u want most

H.U.J.A.N

turun membasahi hati yang tandus
seakan tahu sakit di hati
seakan turut meratapi

turun membasahi bumi Skudai
tempat jatuh bangun
tempat kasih dendam

pasti kau suka
pasti kau gembira

those feelings

i hate the fact that im still in love with you
everything in johor remind me of you
thought of running away
feels like being chased by fact
that we are not together anymore
fucked up
depression
but at the time
trying the hardest to carve a smile
praying and hoping
for your happiness
i'm sorry
for hurting you over and over again
i'm sorry
for doing stupid things
i'm sorry
for everything that happened between us
he will stay with you
i know he will
eventually you will be happy forever after
i know you will
he's your new griffin now
he's your new life star
he's your new guardian
i miss you though
please forgive me
please pray that i will disappeared
out of your sight
forever

sasau diri bila kehilangan

bersyukur pun ada

berdoa agar diri kuat

aku manusia tabah

ku harung dengan senyum

biar hati luka

biar pedih jiwa

Bukan Untukmu

Dahulu kau mencintaiku 

Dahulu kau menginginkanku 

Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku 

Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku 

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh 

Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku 

Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu 

Dan kumohon maafkan aku 

Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis 

Dan biarkan memilih yang lain 

Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu 

Pasti itu terbaik untukmu 

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali 

Aku bukanlah untukmu 

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu 

Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya 

Untuk diriku 

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh 

Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku 

Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu 

Dan kumohon maafkan aku 

Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis 

Dan biarkan memilih yang lain 

Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu 

Pasti itu terbaik untukmu 

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali 

Aku bukanlah untukmu 

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu 

Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya 

Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu 

Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya 

Untuk diriku

akhir kalam

tak ada apa nak tanya dah

tak ada apa nak cakap dah

cukup dengan segala cerita tadi

tak kira apa kau rasa

tak kira apa kau fikir

aku seakan bersyukur

sedih bila mana

kau kata kau mula hilang 

perasaan sayang

perasaan kasih

terhadap aku

sedang aku, masih cuba bertahan

tak mengapa

mungkin kerana pengalamanmu yang lalu

buat diri kau tak sekuat aku

gembira bila mana

dari tutur mu tadi

jujur bunyinya

sekurangnya aku tahu

lambat laun

ku akan kau tinggalkan

maaf kerana mengecewakan mu

maaf kerana masa kau ku baziri

tapi terima kasih

kerana tinggalkan aku

sekurangnya aku tahu

isi dibawah kulit mu itu

marah sudah pasti

diadun dengan hasad dengki

namun

awalnya sahaja

akhirannya aku merelakan

dengan gembira aku akan tinggalkan kau

dengan tenang aku akan teruskan hidup

dengan syukur aku akan lupakan kau

terima kasih dan halalkan makan minum ku

ikhlas aku doakan kau bahagia

sorry for wasting your time
all those time
here and there

yes
it was me that decide that you have to move on
it was me that started all of this

nope
you never mention about being single or not having other guy
ever again in your life
not even once those words come out from your mouth

yes
it was me that make the assumption
it was me that make the conclusion

nope
you have the right to be happy
you choose to be happy
that why you move on that fast

sorry for wasting your time
all those time
here and there

i wish that you wont give your full heart to him

i still wanna get back with you

but for now, i think its best for us to go on our own way

i am sorry for everything
there are time where i wish that, we can remain friend
laugh with joy
like the first time we met at McD
we talk like hours
i was really happy that time
to get to know someone like you
then we move on to the next stage
you thought that i was the one
though i insist at first
but somehow, i made up my mind
to be with you
its worth trying
and it really worth it
but then things started to change
i mean me
its not you
it was me
i dont know what change me
nothing has to do with Aya or my ex or any girl that you always thought
it was me
not you
you have give your best
your loyalty
i am loyal to you
but maybe because of my relation with those girl
how i treat them
making you feel insecure
i am sorry
last night
i was thinking that
maybe its best for us
to stay friend
until the time has really come
for me to ask you in hand
its better to be in that way
i think
i wont be hurting you over and over again
but then
i still ask you to gimme one last chance
because i know, if we are not together
there wont be US in future anymore
because i know that for you
there is no such thing as being friend with your ex
but then, i am still determine to ask you in hand
when the time has come

aku toleh ke belakang
senyum aku sendiri
melihat cerita yang berlalu pergi
baik dan buruk
pahit dan manis
senyum aku sendiri
hal kau dan aku
ku rangkul erat
jauh dalam sudut hati
senyum aku sendiri

termenung ke hadapan
kabur pandangan ku
terasa waktu berlalu perlahan
terkenang hal kau dan aku
kabur pandangan ku
cuba lupa hal kau dan dia
sayu hati

tersedar dari lamunan
aku toleh kiri dan kanan

rupanya aku masih disini
sejenak ku berfikir
kesudahannya
hal yang berlalu
hal yang mendatang
buntu

ku berdoa
agar kau bahagia
disamping dia
ku berdoa
agar aku masih punya peluang
di kemudian hari
ku berdoa
agar kita kembali bersatu
suatu hari nanti

maafkan aku sayang

song from me to you

Looking back at me I see 

That I never really got it right 

I never stopped to think of you 

I'm always wrapped up in 

Things I cannot win 

You are the antidote that gets me by 

Something strong Like a drug that gets me high  [Chorus x2:] 

What I really meant to say 

Is I'm sorry for the way I am 

I never meant to be so cold 

 To you I'm sorry about all the lies 

Maybe in a different light 

You could see me stand on my own again 

Cause now i can see 

You were the antidote that got me by 

Something strong like a drug that got me high [Chorus x2] 

 I never meant to be so cold 

 I never really wanted you to see 

The screwed up side of me that I keep 

Locked inside of me so deep 

It always seems to get to me 

I never really wanted you to go 

So many things you should have known 

I guess for me theres just no hope 

I never meant to be so cold

moving on

my heart was pounding hard
everything looks blur
cant even dare to lift my head up
when noticing that you are moving on
with him
he's been waiting for you all this while
sorry for wasting your love and time
for someone like me
i guess i really hurt you badly
thank you for everything
you've been very nice to me all the time
i'm sorry for the sin i did
good night my dear
the memories will always be there
salam

p/s : i love you always

madah marah padah

kecewa dengan diri sendiri
malu dengan diri sendiri
disebabkan perbuatan diri sendiri

hilang kawan
hilang kekasih
hilang peluang

tapi aku tak curang
tapi aku yang salah
tapi aku terhimpit

diluah mati kawan
ditelan mati kekasih
dikemam mati lah aku

my sin

its hard not to think about the sin that i made

as it will remind you of all your past

i am sorry for what i did

for the first time in my life

things that i had in mind

that i wanted so much

finally stood still in front of me

i've spoken everything

and you've spilled everything

hopefully everything was spilled out

no more hiding or needing time for guts to tell

now its time to face the fact

to forget the past and live to the last

i am sorry for my wrong

i wont let you go

but if you feel like going

do tell me

if that will make you happy

no different

what is the different of

liking other person pictures
liking other person statuses

with

favorite other person twitpic
favorite other person tweet

NO DIFFERENT

sorry for being here in UTM
furthering my study
as one of the reason is just to be close with you
yet things getting more complicated

sorry because i cant finish my assignment
as result, i cant spend my time with you like before

sorry because i keep on explaining
you might be bored listening
that's why you keep on misunderstood

sorry because i keep on stopping you
from apologizing
saying sorry and all
you've done nothing wrong
i am to be blame

please have it your way
i dont know what else to do
i dont know what else you want me to do

hehh.. i guess this post can make you
misunderstand my intention again
whatever it is
have it your way
im done talking

keep it going
your doing just great
now i know why
you actually dont understand a word
things that i've been explaining to you
all this while
i dont know how to talk anymore
neither sarcastic nor straight forward cant make you understand
what i've been saying and explaining to you
all along

Surat untuk bb 2

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

To my dearest ex

          Thank you for removing me from your facebook. It is very thoughtful and helpful of you to remove me for the second time. I am glad that I had completely made up my mind that I should stop wasting my time waiting for you to be mine again. Those 4, 5 years of insanity, waiting for you is really hard for me. You might think that i am over reacting, but that is just me. If you cant accept me at my worst, you definitely not worth it at my best. Sounds familiar aite? The last time we had a conversation, I feel relieve because I had the chance to tell you few things that i've been keeping all those while. I'll just keep the remaining thought and all the memory that we had together as something that not to be remember ever again. That is the best for me. Well actually, I dont want to remember any of those time or things that we had during those days. It was really not a memory actually. Just bunch of craps when I think back. 

          Well, I dont wanna waste anymore time writing shit like I am regretting things that happened between us. Thank you for the samuel and kelvin cap and the black baju melayu. Before this I have dedicated the Avenged Sevenfold song, Dear God for you. I really pray for you back there. I hope those days would never come again. Hope you can find someone that really suits you. Today I wanna dedicate this Billy Talent song, The Ex. Actually I wanted to give you the Fuck You song sing by Lily Allen, but I think that is too much. So sit back and enjoy the music. The lyrics are not what I am looking for actually but hell yeah, I dont give a damn. Selamat tinggal bb. You were once the best memory I ever had. Enjoy!

From

Bopy, xoxo..

Well, I looked at her face and then I knew she changed, 
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray! 
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!

So I sat in my room for 27 days, 
No she never called, I had something to say! 
No she never called, I had something to say!

I don't know much and I don't know how...

Why would she put me through such torture, 
I would have given my life for her, 
She was the one that knocked me over, 
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner

Well, I heard she's great and her new boyfriend's lame,
She can go to hell I'll never be the same! 
She can go to hell I'll never be the same!

And these open wounds will heal with time they say, 
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!
My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray!

I don't know much and I don't know how...

Why would she put me through such torture, 
I would have given my life for her, 
She was the one that knocked me over,
Now I'm alone sitting on the corner

hingar bingar

2 3 hari ni banyak baca pasal politik...ive join few groups in facebook n read their discussion...semua orang pertahankan parti masing-masing...tak kira la pembangkang or kerajaan,semua tak nak kalah...me? im not that fanatics in politic.. if u ask my political view, i prefer to laugh and smile or i would say i support Tok Guru Nik Aziz 100%.. faham balik ayat ni, Tok Guru Nik Aziz, bukan PAS...sebab TGNA perjuangkan rakyat bukan parti...gabungan jadi Pakatan pun mungkin sebab kena trick dengan sape-sape.. ok2..enough cakap pasal TGNA or PAS.. coz right now i am standing neither both the government or the opposition.. dalam group tu ada la sorang mamat ni,memang annoyin gila sampai ak rasa nak maki je..bukan sebab ak fanatik ke apa, tapi duk hingaq sana sini dalam semua group duk canang pasal itu ini tentang pembangkang..dia tu ntah mana datang tak tau,mana bukti pun ntah dia dapat...yang ak nampak, most of his reference are taken from others...so bukan originally dari nukilan/tulisan/bukti dari dia sendiri la kan...so let say kalau rujukan dia tu salah..KALAU la kan..tak ke bodoh, perjuangkan something yang palsu..and if betul.. KALAU la kan..apa yang dia dapat?

rakyat perjuangkan hak keistimewaan orang Melayu sebab Malaysia ni tanah orang melayu

rakyat perjuangkan penurunan harga minyak petrol sebab Malaysia antara pengeluar terbesar

rakyat perjuangkan penurunan harga barang-barang mentah sebab semua benda nak naik

to cotinued.....  :)

your life sucks but they dont fuck

why do you have to fuck life

when you can fuck girls instead?

is your life really that bad?

well not mine coz i'm just starting to enjoy it

got to go now

dont have time to talk with loser

coz i gotta girl waiting to be FUCK!!!!

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!

lunar eclipse

ingat tak peristiwa malam tersebut?

hujan

tenang hatiku tiap kali hujan
tubuh kurus ku peluk
agar hangat sedikit badan ini

aku senyum tiap kali hujan
terkenang pada wajah yang tak pernah ku sangka
datang menjadi watak penting
dalam perjalanan hidup

senyum mu
tawa mu
tak ingin ku kongsi bersama yang lain
ku harap bukan sekejap
jadi milikku
biarlah selamanya

kau hadir saat ku perlukan seseorang
tak duga hubungan kita ke tahap ini
aku cinta kau dan Dia

moga jodoh kita berpanjangan
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

elok laa tu
elok sangat la tu
cakap lain fahamnya lain
ulang banyak-banyak kali pun tak faham-faham jugak
boring duk ulang kaset yang sama
please laa be mature
i wanna grow old with u

READ AND UNDERSTAND THIS

mom and dad they quite don't understand it,
all the kids they laugh as if they planned it,
why do girls wanna pierce their nose,
and walk around in torn pantyhose

i like the ones who say they listen to the punk rock
i like the kids who fight against how they were brought up
they hate the trends and think it's fucked to care,
it's cool when they piss people off with what they wear

so give me one good reason
why we need to be like them
kids will have fun and offend,
they don't want to and don't fit in

its similar to ur situation

dont worry bout me, i wont let u go
u can have my words
just worry bout yourself
can u fit in with my life n my style
as i can fit with yours?

btw, i hate twitter coz u always post ur problem in there
what the use of having a boyfriend when u cant use him?
if he never ever listen to ur problems and helps u to cheer u up,
then that is a sign for u to left him

and please dont give me a very solid reason to leave u
i love u

blink 182

Don't leave me all alone
Just drop me off at home
I'll be fine, it's not the first
Just like last time, but a little worse, and

She said that I'm not the one that she thinks about and
She said it stopped being fun, I just bring her down
I said, "don't let your future be destroyed by my past."
She said, "don't let my door hit your ***."

One more chance, I'll try this time
I'll give you yours, I won't take mine
I'll listen up, pretend to care
Go on ahead, I'll meet you there, and

She said that I'm not the one that she thinks about and
She said it stopped being fun, I just bring her down
I said, "don't let your future be destroyed by my past."
She said, "don't let my door hit your ***."

Let's try this one more time with feeling
One more time with feeling
One more time with feeling
One more time with feeling

She said that I'm not the one that she thinks about and
She said it stopped being fun, I just bring her down
I said, "don't let your future be destroyed by my past."
She said, "don't let my door hit your ***."

Don't leave me all alone
Just drop me off at home
And I'll be fine

i plead guilty

sorry for my doubt. i hardly trust anyone past few years.

this is my last shot. i''ll be facing new stage of life after this.

i'll hardly be spending time with u anymore after this.

to make sure that u'll be safe, i need someone that i can rely on.

i know its wrong for me to ask u that question but i had to.

i dont know whether u'll answer it honestly or not yet i still need to do it.

coz i want u to know that love is not a game for me.

i've been it's slave for 4years. nothing gained except for heartbroken.

im definitely not going to let myself hurt this time.

its not just about me, but its about u.

i dont want u to lie to yourself bout your feelings.

im ok with honesty so far though its hard to accept.

so it's really important for me to know the answer.

i know ur still sad bout what happened. i am so sorry for everything.

i promise u, i'll fix this shit. i wont let u down.

one more thing, please be strong for me. i wont give up on u. i hope u do the same.

i am sorry

cepat-cepat sembuh ya!

having a chickenpox after 21 years is totally not cool aite?

hope u'l get better soon

coz im missing you like a lot

get here asap okay

im looking forward to go on date again with you

im thinking of the queenspark

just like last time

just that this time

you dont have to bake a cake for me

we'll just go an have mini picnic

second chance

life is simple

if u overthink

it gets hard

the harder it is

the complicated

life would be

i am simplifying my life

giving myself

a second chance

i still remember 28

i am looking forward to it

no because of the person

but the promises made to her

earlier than i met her

i am happy with her now

but i still think of her

choose either one

and i choose her

that carve

smile on me

thank you for the chances

lets live life with no regret

what will happen in future

lets just leave it to Allah

to decide what best for us

thanks to her and her

i am what i am

in the inside

thank you both

loving both

is impossible

but keeping both

either one

as a friend

or

as a lover

its up to what will happen

in another 5years

hopefully its possible

next to them is you

be with me till the end baby

yes i am selfish for wanting to reach my dreams

and i have my own perspective on seeing how i am

going to achieve it in future

all i need is someone to be with me

to support me

and i hope that that someone is you

because when i have reach my dreams

i want to see you by my side

at that moment

where nothing else matter

except you and me

living life like those tales told to us

goodnight Julie Abel

better than any

u make me high

with your stuff

better than drugs, alcohol, even sex

i wuv u

i wont be admitted to rehab

for being an you-addict

aite?

i wuv u

lately i am tensed up with the assignment
the thesis is nothing but a garbage so far
fuck study
i cant wait to finish
but i hope that i can stay for another year maybe
i don't know how life would be without you
you've become part of it now

i'm sorry if i ever been loud to you
hurting you has never come to any of my intention
if you breath me everyday
and you claim that you cant go a day without me
then i would like you to know
that i feel the same too

in the car when we're back from your house
i never thought that i was hurting you
didn't mean to be harsh
i am sorry
i would love to spend time with you and your family
it was so sweet of you
asking your parent's permission
for letting me to stay for a night
it was so kind of them

i wish i met you a year or two before this
i wish that i can turn back time and ask you out when the first time i saw you
i miss singapore so much

i spend the whole week studying with you
during night at the library
even i get to spend the weekend with you and family
lucky me..i feel like i am at home
surrounded by siblings and elders

it was so nice of you to keep me accompany
but i feel guilty because each time i see you in the eyes
i can see tiredness, all because of me
i need you to be by my side
always
giving me support
yet i don't want to trouble you

i am okay when you being selfish
wanting me to be by your side 24/7
but it is i who forget
that without you
i would never realise my mistake for all this years
that without you
i would might forget how does it feels like
to love someone
and
to be love by someone
it's been a while since i had those feelings
thank you

you claim the night at city plaza and old town was the best
out of all night that we've been spending time together
but for me
every month,day and night,minute and second
that i've been spending with you
during this 5-6month time
was the best that i ever had

the smile on your face
the taste of your lips
the calmness in your eyes

i would remember that
just like how i will remember my promises
i don't mind if you are not keeping yours
cause i for sure will keep mine
as it not only a promise
but a vow
that i will carry
till i succed my future plan

i wuv u Julie Abel
i really do

with love
-Bobo-
5:24 am December 21th, 2011

for you

i am thinking of you

every single day & night

every single second & minute

every single breath that i take

all my life

i wanted

only you

to be by my side

you're always in my mind

i feel you everywhere i go

you got me out of my mind

i miss you much

p/s : for the one that deserve someone better than me